26/05/2026
#2024 Long time no see 🐱
2025 brought a cascading chain of life altering events. Since september, I’ve been on a path of rediscovering myself and my art. Searching for a faint light of hope in the dark, trying to make sense of loss, grief, and existence itself.
Sometimes I did well. Sometimes I took on more than I could manage, unaware I was already carrying too much. Some days, even the simplest actions became impossible, heavy with the weight of burnout and avoidance.
When things became unbearable, I trusted time to carry me. I tried to push myself somewhere else in space...
New places, new people, new possibilities. Hoping to be remembered, wishing to be rediscovered.
Yet, wherever I went, the weight of uncertainty followed. I looked for peace, clarity, and signs everywhere, except within myself.
I mistook the reflections of light in others for the source of life itself. So, I stopped looking outward. I meditated. Existed. Let time carry my physical form until I found the truth: I didn't need a miracle, or an explanation from life.
𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝑺𝒖𝒏𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒆.
𝑺𝒖𝒏𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒊𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒕.
𝑮𝒆𝒕 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒐𝒇 𝒊𝒕,
𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒊𝒓𝒓𝒂𝒅𝒊𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅.
𝑺𝒊𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒎𝒚 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒕𝒉.
𝑰𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒄𝒆,
𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒄𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏.
𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒃𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕.
𝑷𝒖𝒓𝒆, 𝒖𝒏𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒈𝒊𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕.
𝑴𝒚 𝒗𝒐𝒊𝒄𝒆 𝒆𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒆𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒌.
𝑪𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒕𝒉.
Through this new voice, as I heal and rebuild, I will be curating waves of sound and assembling visceral, unapologetic textures of raw noise as Spectrum Sunshine.
Long story short: I still need time. Need to learn to walk before I can run. When the time is right, I hope to make up for my past mistakes, catch up on broken promises, and reconnect with the kind souls I’ve been separated from.
Take care of yourselves. And don't break your toys ;) because most of the time, you and your equipment will be closest for you to truly depend on.
sunshine