16/09/2024
Exhibition photos for the artwork on the lower floor of right now: “Every lost story is a hungry ghost” (2024). This installation uses projection on embossed gold metallic fabric and mixed audio from both the film and a lyric essay I wrote and recorded at .
Projecting onto this shimmering, textured fabric makes the video feel as if it’s appearing on running water.
The lyric essay (which took 7 different recording sessions to get right, btw!!) shifts between personal and collective loss, migration, buried histories, the long fight for civil rights and social justice, moments of tenderness, and the intertwining of decay and growth/movement. The repeated effort to regrow what was trampled/burned/excised both out of history and out of our individual lives.
I really wanted to write something that wove together the personal effects of the political, and the political effects of the personal. That theory and history are lived—are alive—and full of emotion and personal (and collective) ramifications.
The video component is one of the last remaining recordings I have a rotting pier in Edgewater, New Jersey, right by where I grew up. It overlooks upper Manhattan, and it used to be part of a grand restaurant, which was on a decommissioned historic steamboat on the Hudson. It rotted slowly over the course of many years after a bad storm in the early 2000s. I’d watched it in intervals and, after moving to Sweden, I’d check in with it during each visit, watching it decay over time. Like my life back home was withering away with it. The New York I remembered was also going/gone. A thought that didn’t really hit me until my grandmother’s passing in 2014. I looked at the Hudson and felt like it looked back at all this, like some undying witness.
I wanted this work to feel like it could speak to the bigness and intertwined nature of this particular experience. A weird but common gordian knot of things.
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