01/05/2026
It has been a month of not creating anything because I went through hopelessness, burnout, disappointments and “failures”. I thought that my bodies of work were not seen and appreciated the way I see others do in social media. I also felt that artmaking is just a luxury when you don’t have a lot of extra time. I’m a working mom and wife, and life threw a lot of tasks for me to do. I thought to myself, why make art when no one appreciates what I do and I’d have to wake up all night to finish a piece (and why do I cry while writing this caption?)?
Bee Happy Anniversary Week 15: Mosaic - Be Crafty, Bee Happy made me recollect my thoughts and ask my self why I make art/craft. The simple answer is it makes me happy. I remember my 7-year old self, drawing on a piece of paper and pinning it to our walls, pretending like an artist exhibiting in an art gallery. No one sees it except my family, but there is joy of making and putting it for display. So like a phoenix rising from the ashes and cherry blossoms blooming on a spring day, I am emerging and creating again after some setbacks. I don’t think of failures as “failures” but lessons I have to learn so I can evolve as an artist. And while I put these paper pieces together to form this work, it’s like putting my thoughts and dreams again so that my 7-year old self will be proud of me.