08/10/2022
Title: "This time for sure"
Hello. Its been a while.
Its been 2 years since i stopped making arts regularly. That time i lost all motivation and will to touch my tablet due to stress and multiple life issues. Also pandemic explodes that time, Tho thats not the main reason.
I love making arts. If everyone can define who i am, it will always be in arts and anime. I started making digital arts around 2016. Not totally started, i just tried it once and didnt continue since i still prefer trads that digital arts. I viewed digital arts as easy and cheating and didnt consider this as a form of art way back then.
But eventualy, ive enjoyed making arts digitally since ive thought this is the new future and didnt expect that it would be too hard as in haha. Years passed and i entered the world of commissioning. I started on the rate of a dollar to 200usd per piece in the span of 2 years of commissioning. Almost everyday i have so much client since a lotof people love my art amd it boost my confidence to continue and improve more. There was the time i reach 5000$ a month of total sales just making arts everyday. Thats when all the problem started. That time i only view arts as a form of money. I dont draw if there's no money involve, i dont stop unless i reached the 10k pesos quota everyday which stressed the hell out of me. I began to hate making arts but still continue due to large sum of money involve. I already have so many clients non stop and began to hate everyone on my side. I became furious, bad and full of hate. That time, i hate making arts. Just touching my pen and tablets make me puke, i cant even draw a single piece without vomitting. Everything is simply pure hate. I lost all motivation, i lost the path where i enjoy making arts. simply put, i lost the reason why i draw that time so i decided to stop. My final piece is the surtr wip from arknights. I tried to finish that one and after that. I completely stopped. The moment i stopped, i really restarted from zero, exclude my self from anime and artworks. Began to apply to works that involves physical labor, something out of my profession and began to enjoylife once again. I got the taste of reality where money is really hard to earn. I met new friends out of my age and find success in life after stepping out on my true profession.
Up until now
I still enjoys my life out of arts and sometimes draw for fun and for the things i really enjoy.
Changed the branding of the page since i wanna restart again and this time, to make more beautiful arts and improve more.