09/05/2015
It’s true that some people come into your life to teach you how to let go. It’s also true that life will keep throwing at you the same damn kind of lemon until you learn how to deal with it.Yes, it was unexpected, I was in pain, naturally, humanly. However, the difference was that this time, I didn’t ask myself a thing.I didn’t need to ask myself anything because I already had the only closure I ever needed, which at the time I had failed to realize with my ex: he didn’t want me enough to stay with me, to fight for us, to be present. Why should I even bother with any other reason? He made a choice to leave – that’s already enough truth in there.
I admit that these experiences haven’t been pleasant but in a way I know they were good for me and I’m grateful for the people that ever crossed my paths. I needed them as a reminder, a wake-up call to be strong and grow up, to stop attaching my self-worth to anyone or any kind of relationship, to understand that I’m always whole as the individual I’m, and to stop finding answers that don’t really matter and learn to accept life as it is. Now I finally understand that closure doesn’t come from any specific reason, or a big talk, or the person who left me. No. It comes from within me.
dearX
BS Computer Science