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Poet and Palette, Davao City (2026)

07/05/2025

When you lost that one person you always run too.. It feels like you just lost the moon in all these darkness.

04/05/2025

Silence is an answer itself..

04/05/2025

Baka sa susunod na kwento tayo naman ang dulo..

04/05/2025

I really thought you saved me..

01/05/2025

"Mahiwagang Misteryo ng Katahimikan"

Kadiliman, punong-puno ng kadiliman!
Nakakatakot isipin na nag-iisa na naman sa gitna ng kawalan,
At walang kasiguraduhang,
Kung magpapatuloy o hanggang dito na lang.

Sa bawat katahimikang bumabalot sa akin,
Ay sya ring pagdagsa ng halo-halong saloobin,
Libo-libong alaala ang paulit-ulit na naglalaro,
Patuloy akong hinahabol saan man ako tumakbo.

Nag-uumpisang manginig kasabay ng malalalim na paghinga,
Hindi ko na alam kung saan pa ba ako pupunta,
Kung sa bawat pagsubok ay pilit akong hinihila,
Hinihila palayo sa pag asang aking nakikita.

Unti-unting nilalamon ng nakakabinging katahimikan
Unti-unting nakukulong sa sariling kulungan,
Unti-unting nawawalan ng pag-asang lumaban,
At unti-unting nanghihina sa bawat dilim na dinadaanan.

At sa bawat patak ng aking mga luha,
Ay ang bawat sakit, at ang katanungang "bakit ba ako pa!?"
Minsan ng sumagi ang kagustuhang sumuko,
At hindi na batid kung saan pa ba ako patungo.

Ngunit sa kabila ng lahat ay nananatiling nakatayo,
Nakikita na ang liwanag sa kadilimang lumago,
Unti-unting naliliwanagan na hindi dapat ako sumuko,
Sapagkat may pangarap pa akong nais kong matamo.

At tuluyang naglaho ang kadiliman at kalungkutan,
Napalitan ng kapatagang puno ng naglalakihang mga halaman,
Tahimik na kagubatan, at malawak na karagatan,
Bumalik ang kagandahan ng paborito kong katahimikan.

Sa katahimikang bumabalot ay aking natanto,
Na ang katahimikan ay hindi laging negatibo,
Hindi lang nakatagong emosyon, at nakakatakot na kadiliman,
Kundi kapayapaan, at panibagong karunungan.

Nabigyan ng panahong magnilaynilay sa nakaraan kasama na ang kasalukuyan,
Tinatantya kung dapat na nga bang sumuko, o itutuloy pa ba ang laban,
Gaano pa kalakas ang bagyong humagipit sa aking nilalakaran,
Ay matapang ko itong haharapin na walang kinakakatakutan.

Patuloy na babangon ilang beses mang madapa,
Patuloy na aawit boses man ay mawala,
Patuloy na sasayaw kahit sa kawalan ng musika,
Patuloy na magsusulat kahit maubos na ang tinta.

Patuloy na lilipad mga pakpak man ay mawala,
At patuloy na matututo sa leksyong dala ng problema,
At sa sandaling ito nais kong malaman mo,
Na nahihirapan ka man sa kadilimang kinakaharap mo.

Lagi mong iisipin na may liwanag sa dulo,
Na kaya mong lampasan lahat ng madilim na mundo,
Na sa bawat panahong dama mo ang katahimikan at kadiliman,
Ay mayroong nag-iisang liwanag na sasagip sayo sa walang hanggang kawalan.

Magbibigay pag-asa at karunungan,
Upang iyong matanto kung gaano kaganda ang kalikasan,
Kung gaano kahalaga ang mabuhay ng may paninindigan,
Kung gaano ka sarap ang mabuhay ng may sariling kapayapaan.

Kung gaano ka saya, ang matagal mo ng pangarap ay makamtan,
At kung gaano ka mahiwaga ang misteryo ng katahimikan,
Na ating nag-iisang sandalan,
At naging tunay na kaibigan.
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PS. Own Artwork

01/05/2025

"Lost Moon"

First of all I don't know how to start
Should I replay the scenes and tell it from my heart
It hurts to go back especially to that part
Where the bond we shared starts falling apart

I couldn't comprehend what should I say
I was left blank and speechless. Would you believe what I say?
The glass got broken I don't know how to mend it back
I'm sorry it's my fault that I let it break from the crack

I couldn't even bring my words to mouth
I just tried to write it down hoping I won't go south
I couldn't even look at you when your just around
I don't have the courage to face you when I can't even make a sound

I tried to connect with you but my fear keeps crashing in
I know that I fcked up big time and will never even win
I disappointed you so much that I couldn't bear to face you
Knowing that I break your trust and miserably failed you

I hurted you I know and I can't forgive myself for that
I promised not to hurt you in every vow that I had
Yet, imperfect I may be it's not an excuse to be free
I'm sorry so much, I don't deserve you and I see

I really wanted to talk to you I just don't have the chance to do so
We were pent up with our tight schedules and my battles of yes or no

I don't know how to approach you or even say hi and hello
Without fearing that I might be rejected, might messed it up or so

I hope you know it's not that I don't care
It's just I'm scared to talk and face you, all I did was to stare
Observe you in the shadows hoping your doing good without me
Trying so much to be brave to face you but ended backing down and let you be

Yet this sorry is useless what's done is done
I already lost my moon and everything was gone
I lost the best friend I treasured with this mistake I committed
I lost the light of my darkness and got the pain that I hated

No tears can bring back all the pain that I caused you
No pain in my heart can bring back the betrayal that it left you
No hard breathing can bring back all the happy memories I had with you
Just like no sorry can bring back the bestfriend I found in you

I lost a brother that cared for me
I lost a partner that supported me
I lost a best friend that means everything to me
I lost the only moon I have that lights the darkness in me
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PS. Own Artwork

01/05/2025

"Torn and a Mess"

Write and write then erase it again,
I've been doing this for an hour hoping to write some again.
I wanted to express all the pain that I feel,
But I can't just find the words to write and get real.

My heart is in pain and my mind is all blank,
It's like I couldn't spit the thorns and my brain had just sank.
A never-ending blackhole and an empty box of gift,
A struggle to break the walls on a steep and rocky cliff.

I couldn't find the mess and the burden I want to eliminate,
It's been chaining me down to leave me incapacitate.
This emptiness in my head and the chaos that I feel,
Came crashing, and slamming, trying to break an indestructible seal.

How hard and exhausting to ever feel this way,
When you don't know what to feel, what to do, and what to say.
It's like you're torn to be optimistic or pessimistic you can be,
Or just go with the flow, don't overthink and just be me.

Still, the darkness never left and the storm got worse,
How do I put to words when I don't understand this curse?
I tried to be the ray of sunshine in a cold and gloomy day,
And the moon in a dark breezy night to keep everyone at bay.

Yet, even if I try to stay calm and composed,
I couldn't shake the feeling of being troubled and exposed.
It feels so suffocating, I want to break free and grow,
To be chainless, to breathe, and to eventually let go.
..

PS. Own Artwork

01/05/2025

"Raising my White Flag"

Staring at the reflection of this girl in the mirror
Looking beautiful but with eyes filled with horror
Her eyes filled with pain and an unexplained tremor
Her smile never fades despite her pain and broken armor

I don't understand why you all keep doing this to me
I didn't do anything wrong to you but why hurt me
I even keep on understanding you giving you so many chances
Yet why do you always keep on breaking it and leaving me hopeless

I'm tired of reaching out and trying to fix us
I'm tired of convincing myself that you care about us
I'm tired of trying to save this by leaving you a seat
A seat on my table where I can accept my defeat

The person who made you the happiest are the ones who'll hurt you the most
The phrase I never believed but I can now see how much it cost
I was left in this dark completely unsafe and so lost
Alone, broken and hurting the most

I tried to fight for the both of us but looks like fate doesn't permit
As you were not even talking or giving me a hint
Am I really this stupid that I really did commit
As I still wanna try fixing this bond that's fading bit by bit

Yet, what can I do when it's you who don't want to
No calls, or talks even hi's or how'd you do?
It's time to raise my white flag as it seems nothing will do
I was removed from the chapter I was yearning to be in to

Ironic how it seems that you save me yet you broke me
I shouldn't have believed you when you told me you'll stay with me and not leave me
Let's stop this anymore, I've accepted my defeat
As your memory in me fades till the last of my heart beat
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01/05/2025

"Always Not Enough"

Deep breaths, deep breaths keep it calm and steady
Yet my body starts shaking I know I'm not ready
Closing my eyes I try to keep steady
But fear ate me I can't help but hug my teddy

I know I'm not a good girl as imperfect I can be
But don't I deserve to be loved and treasured for just being me
I did everything to please them as I can see fit for them to see
But my efforts where useless for they can't hear my desperate plea

It became so different as you got a little colder
Am I assuming things or your distance is getting longer
I tried to reach you but I'm still stuck in this corner
It felt like you are leaving not now but forever

My lips start trembling and my eyes start to water
I can't afford for you to leave me as you were always my only comforter
I started to panic and my breathing became shorter
It suffocates me so hard will I survive much longer

Panic embraces me I don't know what to do
Just the thought of you leaving makes me think if you hate me too
Am I enough for you to stay or was I too much for you
Coz seems like lacking or overflowing I'm just always not enough for everyone too
..

01/05/2025

"Queen's Torn Gown"

It's hard to explain what I'm feeling inside
Tears just started falling I just wanna hide
Is this what it feels if there's no one by your side
Or when your too afraid to spill to let them join your tough ride

I was just doing so fine a while ago, so much laughter in the air
Yet how did it take a turn to this painful cries of despair
I was being behave, I was minding my lair
Yet suddenly my emotions came crumbling so unfair

A sudden change in the atmosphere what happened in this room
Is this how the world works from happiness to gloom
From a serene tranquility to a loud shocking boom
My emotions kept flowing into an eternal doom

I was trying my best to stop and get some rest
But everytime it gets better it all goes to west
I was doing okay with my life as I strive to be the best
But why life makes it hard for me always putting me in the test

I was shaking, breaking and having a meltdown
No one to share to as if the only person in town
Haven't had this again yet I'm back to this breakdown
In this dark and lonely alley running away in a queen's torn gown
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01/05/2025

"Painful Surrender"

Alone in my room full of thoughts in my head
Staring at the ceiling as I lie awake in my bed
Memories keeps flashing in black, white and red
Settling to that memory where you left me unsaid

I know I'm not perfect I have my flaws and mistake
But we both know that you're the risk that I am willing to take
I risked my everything, my all was at stake
Yet, I never ever saw it as the worst decision I will make

You might made me cry a thousand of times
Or you might be the reason of my sleepless nights
You might be the cause of my dying lights
Yet you were the reason why I learned to fight for my rights

You might be my most painful chapter
Or you might be the reason of my heartbreaking written letter
You might be the worst nightmare I don't want to remember
Yet you were my most memorable lesson and my most beautiful disaster

You were the prince I wished for to dance with
Or you were the king I fought for to rule with
You were the fairytale I dream of having
Yet, you proved me that we're no such thing as a fairytale's happy ending

Our last chapter might be my most painful surrender
As it was a long fight for my love even after you put on that barrier
I tried to reach you but your silence was the answer
That you don't want me in your life today, tomorrow and forever
..

01/05/2025

"I'm Tired"

Happy thoughts, happy place
Happy moments and smiling face
Times of joy and roaring laughter
Times of tease and continuous banter

All keeps flashing in front of me
Playing like a scene in a wonderful movie
Yet reminds me to put myself in place
If I want to stay on my line without having a chase

Then suddenly out of nowhere the room became dark
Silence engulfed me, alone without spark
Its so dark in here I wanna go out
I started to tremble and with fear I shout

Help me please, I don't want to be here
Don't lock me in this darkness covered in fear
Tears began to fall from my eyes
I couldn't help crying but I did a lot of tries

I kept all inside me and go on with life
Yet its impossible to do that if it strikes like a knife
Started breathing heavily don't know where to go
I feel so suffocated still no light and no glow

Screams and cries, shouts of thunder
Messing my head with evil laughter
Dark alleys and locked doors
Mysterious and dangerous personalities kept lock and in store

It seems like 2 hours had past and my tears still falls
Why can't you just stop falling? I screamed on the halls
My body starts to shake
I feel like I'll break
Don't know if I can still take
The pain that I make

I'm sorry don't leave me, please don't let go
I know I fu**ed up a little-- no its big and I know
Promise I'll be a good girl just don't leave me alone
I'm used to but I know that I just want a company of my own

I'm begging, I'm sorry just don't know what to do
Why do people easily leave me without a say or a clue
Its like they just vanished in thin air cause I'm so hard to handle
I'm a roller coaster ride of emotions and the most complicated riddle

With the thoughts of you leaving just like what they did to me
I feel like I can't do this anymore should I leave and be free
No pain, no emotion, no struggle, no cries
Lying on a bed, steady and closed eyes

Scared of you leaving just like what happened before
But with a different person that became my life and my core
My world became monotonous, dull and gray
I don't feel like breathing, should I just stop this and stay?

My nose starts going puffy and my eyes began to swell
Dark and messed up thoughts began rising up from hell
They keep on running in my head and urging me to listen
Listen to the voice that keeps whispering my escape in this dark den

So alone on my own it's time to take off the mask
I can now let go of this cooped up feelings like those chemicals in the flask
Just cry and cry until you can't breathe anymore
My sight gets blurry, feel like collapsing with this sore

With the item on my hand I stared at my reflection
A smiling girl with tears on her eyes and a ticking bomb of emotion
I'm so tired, I wanna sleep and escape this madness
Now, its time, time to leave without any traces of existence
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Can I rest now? Forever?... Or maybe not

PS. Own Artwork

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