Pallete of Thoughts

Pallete of Thoughts When voices aren't enough, write.

21/04/2025

The usual corner at this coffee shop. It's become my sanctuary, this little nook where the city's hum fades into a gentle murmur. Today, like so many times before, I found myself simply here. Sat, staring into the middle distance, the swirling patterns of the latte a focal point for an inward gaze. It's strange how quiet it can become inside my head sometimes, and then, without warning, the floodgates open. Thoughts just...flow. Not gently, mind you, but crashing waves, each one pulling me back along the familiar, often bittersweet, highway of memory lane. Faces I haven't thought of in years, snippets of conversations, "ang multo ng tawa" – they all resurface with a startling clarity. The present, this lukewarm coffee in my hands, feels distant, almost irrelevant, as I'm dragged back into moments "na akala ko ay ligtas na nakatago at hindi na gagambala pa. At dito, sa isang sulok", I become a silent observer in my own history, watching the echoes of yesterday play out like a half-forgotten film.

-sol

23/03/2024

once again, it's flooding inside.

-sol

This piece I'll leave it here and delete the rest of my unsent letters to those people that could drop everything just t...
08/06/2023

This piece I'll leave it here and delete the rest of my unsent letters to those people that could drop everything just to fathom what's inside of me.

I know that love is free for everyone and that I am one deserving to feel it too.
I couldn't argue more when they let me feel it for a short or long while, knowing that they did their best showing what is best for me and not letting me feel the struggles alone.
And I couldn't tell them when there are days that I rather be the one who aids, or that sometimes I'm not in the palette of healing.

I just disappear and shut everyone off, run away like a lost soul, without signs that I need to clear off and unload extra baggage I've been carrying since existence that I couldn't understand where did I get it?
and how can I describe it to them?

Truth is the world is far wide and overwhelming, it runs on me empty
but just beyond that is not and never will be them
It also doesn't mean that I don't love them—I do, more than they can ever imagine.

It's just that I hate seeing one that I love watching me pick up the pieces of my soul while they are just there, trying to comprehend what was happening and so before they could be of help, I distance
I distance myself just so they'll be helpless
I distance myself so I won't let a soul bleeds by glasses of my traumas

When my batteries fail, I can't be the best for them.
It's like my chest becomes a hollow auditorium echoing "You're not enough and worth waiting for" into the chambers of my heart.

This is me and I don't intend of staying for people who deserved a world that is not messy, harsh, or broken to name a few things that are not better for them.
Well even if I needed and want them most, I can't.

Oh, how I wish I could explain and let them know why I sometimes distance myself from them.

Yet, I was born to have a tongue that speaks the language of silence and metaphors that I was fluent with.

-sol

09/04/2023

that grab and pull for an embrace and a soft kiss,
that holding the waist and putting the side in ways,
that slipping her fingers and interlocking into mine,
those slow and steady phases walking down the street,
the way she looks and looks out quickly and her body those sways as she turns back when I see her glancing at me.
Her smile is as stunning as her, no joke
and when she laughs it creates notes in my ear and then melodies, tones, and rhythm that stabs through my soul it feels like a song that calms the chaos within me.
her presence makes me yawn cause she put me at ease
she's more than a resting spot a home as I can sense in her
she gave me bliss that I can't resist
her charm, thoughts, and her silence echoed into the four chambers of my heart she is the epitome of love itself.

-sol

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