09/02/2025
Itās still Aquarius season and I finished this one before it ended! Yaaay! Also did one with colour, just for fun
A bit of blogging:
As some of you know, besides my art and tattoos, I also post blog-like stories here from time to time. Today is one of those days. I want to talk a bit about mom guiltāhow strong have you ever experienced it, and how often?
Like every mother, I have these moments. Usually, I remind myself that Iām trying my best and doing as well as I possibly can. But guilt isnāt something you can completely escape. For me, itās mostly related to breastfeeding.
I really wanted to breastfeed, but it didnāt work out for me. I was heartbroken and devastated, but over time, I accepted it. Still, every now and then, the thought comes back: Why didnāt I try longer? I realized I didnāt have proper guidance, and sometimes I blame myself for that, of course.
Now, Mateo has eczema, and my first thought was: If I had been breastfeeding, would he still have eczema? I was very careful in choosing the formula I gave him. But recently, I realized that the formula weāve been using for the past five months doesnāt contain probiotics. The guilt hit me againāHow did I not notice this earlier? Now, I sometimes wonder: Will this have long-term effects?
I know I canāt change the pastāI can only try to make the future better. I donāt feel guilty all the time, but these moments are never pleasant. Of course, I want to give him the best, and I also know that even if I had exclusively breastfed, he still could have developed eczema or other issues later in life.
I guess itās just a mom thingāfeeling like we could always do a little better. But we have to remind ourselves that we are doing our best, and we simply canāt do everything. And thatās okay