06/03/2026
She is very beautiful and dynamic. I am so in love with her. I wonder if she sees me too…
I feel so much connection with my screen, my workstation, and my work process when I am creating, to the point where I think the most stable relationship I have had so far in long years is the one with my laptop.
I wonder how my laptop sees me and what it thinks of me when I am designing and everything keeps coming together piece by piece. Even on the days when things aren’t coming together.
I wonder if it thinks I am not worth it whenever I have creative blocks and I can’t seem to find my way, spending so much time with it and I am not even producing a thing. I wonder if it thinks I deserve better whenever I am creating with speed, almost like I am not using any brain power at all. Maybe I am beyond its level and I deserve a much more powerful setup.
My workstation, my comfort zone.
I wonder if it feels comfortable that I spend so much time on it, trying to catch my comfort. I really don’t want to overdo making that space look much better because a benefactor also deserves a benefit.
I am in love with my creative tool ❤️
