21/10/2025
“The Story of a Soul in Confusion
(A narrative poem told by a dying observer — a witness to a life lost between right and wrong)
Ayobami Ayefele Abraham
I sat by his bedside, the air thick with time.
The room smelled of medicine and memory.
He was frail — bones like dry sticks under skin,
Eyes sunken, yet burning with stories untold.
He said, “Son… before I go, let me speak,
for this heart carries the echo of confusion.”
And I listened…
As the night wrapped us in its quiet shroud,
and his trembling voice began to weave the years.
1. THE BEGINNING — A WORLD UNKNOWN
“I was born,” he said, “into a world I did not understand.
The air was loud with voices telling me who to be.
I cried not just for milk — I cried for meaning,
For even as a child, I saw contradictions bloom.”
He spoke of parents, righteous in speech,
Yet quick to curse behind closed doors.
Of teachers who taught truth but sold lies to survive.
Of pastors who preached love, but envied the crowd.
“I thought right was right,” he said, “but soon I learned —
right was what the strong could afford,
and wrong was what the weak were blamed for.”
The boy in him learned early to blend,
To smile when he was bleeding,
To bow when he should have stood,
Because the world punished honesty
And praised convenience.
2. THE YOUTH — LEARNING TO SURVIVE
He grew into a young man with fire in his veins,
Dreams large enough to light the night.
But every flame met the rain of deceit.
“In school,” he said, “they told us success was truth,
but all I saw were cheats becoming kings.
Those who bent rules built castles,
Those who kept faith were mocked as fools.”
He tried to love — but love too,
Was measured in gifts and lies.
He learned to flatter, to pretend,
To wear masks upon masks
Until even his reflection grew confused.
“I watched my friends fall to lust,
I watched my faith grow thin.
They called sin freedom,
And holiness bo***ge.
They called wrong adventure,
And right, old-fashioned.”
He laughed then — a tired, cracked laugh.
“So I followed the crowd.
I wanted to belong.
I wanted applause more than peace.
And slowly… I became a stranger to my own soul.”
3. THE ADULTHOOD — THE GREAT CONFUSION
He spoke of work, of wealth, of weary striving.
“I made money, yes — but lost myself.
I gained friends, but none who knew me.
My house grew, my heart shrank.
I drank from every cup this world offered,
But still, I thirsted.”
He remembered sitting in church,
Hearing truth that no longer moved him.
“Even God’s name became a slogan,
Faith became performance.
We prayed with lips, not hearts —
And we sang louder than we loved.”
He watched his children learn the same.
Their innocence fading fast,
Their laughter traded for screens and noise.
“And I asked myself —
What world did I bring them into?”
4. THE FALL — WHEN THE BODY BREAKS, THE TRUTH SPEAKS
Then came the sickness, silent at first,
Then loud, angry, unstoppable.
The world that once clapped now looked away.
Those he pleased forgot his name.
“On my bed,” he said,
“I realized — I blended so well,
I disappeared.
I became what they wanted,
Not what I was born to be.”
He coughed, weakly smiled.
“Right had always been right, my son —
I just didn’t have the courage to follow it.
And wrong had always been wrong —
I just learned to justify it.”
5. THE END — CLARITY IN THE SHADOWS
The lamp flickered. His breath slowed.
But his words grew clearer, softer, deeper.
“The world is a stage of mirrors,” he whispered.
“Children are born with light —
But we teach them to dim it.
We call wisdom foolishness,
We call pride confidence.
We confuse the heart until it forgets its beat.”
He looked out the window — eyes glazed but glowing.
“If I could live again,
I’d dare to be misunderstood.
I’d rather be right alone
Than wrong with the crowd.
I’d hold onto truth,
Even if the world laughed at me.”
His hand trembled as he reached for mine.
“Tell them,” he said,
“That blending in is slow dying.
That this world’s approval
Is the most expensive poison.”
A tear rolled down his cheek.
“I was born into confusion, yes —
But I die with understanding:
Truth was never hidden —
It was just inconvenient.”
The night grew still.
His eyes drifted heavenward,
A faint smile resting on his lips.
And I, the witness, sat in silence —
Listening to the echo of a life that blended too well.
Outside, the world still buzzed in confusion,
But in that room… there was peace.
For one man had found clarity
At the edge of eternity