01/05/2024
Darkness and I have had this long-lasting love affair,
that has gone on for as long as I can remember. At first glance he is daunting, but there's a natural attraction between us, like a magnet force that neither one of us can resist. You see Darkness is my most familiar lover.
He knows my every move, my every breath, my every heartbeat, the familiarities of my dreams, but also details He's definitely the devil I know. of my nightmares, as well.
The devil, you know is always easier than the devil you don't. He knows exactly where to place his hand on the small of my back, to guide me into synchronization of his every move.
With just a slide of his fingertips, I am prepared for every dip,
spin, or turn that he has planned. We waltz effortlessly across the dance floor, no matter what tune is played or how fast the beat goes. Truthfully we've been doing this dance for so long, that at this point we probably don't even need a beat or any kind of musical note. But his allure has never been far from my heart, despite all of the times I've walked away from the dance floor. He already knows all my vulnerabilities. When I begin to believe every whisper of the voices that betray my self-confidence, the voices that tear away at my heart, the voices that just continue to replay over and over in my head, like a broken record. That's when Darkness knows how to step in seductively. All he has to do is give me one glance, or one glimmer, while he gently takes me by the hand, and softly whispers "Trust me I'll make you forget all this pain". Before another word can be spoken, I'm right back on the dance floor. Easily engrossed in his embrace. He makes it almost impossible to break away from the enchanting way he encompasses me within his embrace.
His embrace has become a welcomed familiarity, as my soul grows dark, cold, and numb from all the despair of this world. With just one twist or turn, I am mesmerized with his dark beautiful ways. His dark qualities bring about a comfort that shouldn't be there, but the cold washes over me like a comfortable wave. Lost in his eyes and his embrace, I'm so distracted that I don't see his next play. As the music intensifies, I become swept away in the moment. I close my eyes ever so briefly, but as I open my eyes, I quickly realize I'm no longer dancing with Darkness. Somehow I am now enveloped within someone else's embrace. Transfixed by the impenetrable, deep, dark, obscurity before me, I suddenly realize it is Death who holds me within his embrace. Before I can even put up a fight, he whisks me off of my feet, removing all hope of any available opportunity to walk away. My love affair with Darkness quickly left my control. I'm left with no opportunity to right my wrongs or apologize in any way. The dreams of what could have been are now gone. As I look at my reflection fade, I see all of those I've left behind. Kicking, screaming, and begging for a chance. I suddenly wake up, drenched in sweat, and tangled within my bedding. God heard my prayers and pleas. Almost like the three Christmas spirits who visited Scrooge,
I realize can't waste this opportunity. I have the chance to embrace my life one last time, life is too fragile and short for me to leave this world with more heartbreak than necessary.
