22/05/2026
Caution: this isn’t a sad post; it’s simply sharing a shameful reality in 2026.
I used to think no matter what happens or where I am, or in what circumstances I am stuck, I can always find happiness inside me, seriously! But now, I’ve lost it for some months. I’ve discovered that in some phases, even though I dig deep I won’t find it. and even if I laugh out loud, my eyes tell the truth.
Since 2026 started I haven’t shared any personal or career content. not to mention, It aligned with my principles but I was also frozen afterwards. Last Friday, I decided to come out from my cave and reconnect. I visited some fascinating exhibitions and would love to share them with my followers, most of whom are Iranian living in the country. Unfortunately, they’re not allowed to see my posts! This made me feel frozen again. I even feel a strange sense of shame when I use the internet freely and normally here, knowing my friends and family and all people have been cut off for some months. They’re losing their jobs and everything else. Even if they manage to bypass the filtering, it costs a fortune.
