19/04/2024
BODY SHAMING
They say readers are writers. So you'll never know if I'm saying the truth or putting into practice my writing skills🤭🤭. This is true life story though. I once dated a man, a real Kamba man. I was really in love until he made me feel inadequate and insecure about my body 🥺🥺. You see I was a size six. That relationship drained almost all the self esteem I had mastered throughout my life. This guy had no shame oogling at every curvaceous damsel that passed by. I used to catch him not once or twice drooling over bigger busts than mine. It used to really hurt very bad. Voicing my concern about his actions only made our relationship worse. He used to arrogantly respond to my cries by a simple " I'm simply appreciating those that are blessed since you have little to be appreciated." ( Little in terms of my body frame). I ought to have understood that it was as simple as that.😅😅😅😅😅😅😅.
Whenever he would realise I didn't take it well, he would the start justifying himself. "No strings attached, I was just joking, you look nice." Being a size six, I wasn't physically endowed. My bust and butt carried the very description of faith in Hebrews 13 "A substance of things hoped for, the evidence of the unseen" 😂😂😂😂😂😂. This guy one day ended up suggesting I should do surgery and he was ready to fund it. Whatever he said struck a nerve and I called it quits 🚮🚮. Trust me body shaming is a major red flag in any relationship. Relationships has to have a life giving impact ‼️ And I was already withering off. The sad part was that even after calling it off, he had already disjointed few parts of me . I felt really insecure about my body. Thoughts ran through my head with a thousand ' what ifs' . What if I had a bigger frame maybe things would have been better. Maybe I do need a bigger bust and butt? 😂😂🥺 Whatever people think after being hurt.
I built my walls high and my cocoon strong enough to be penetrated. You see if you allow insecurities ,
