Dear Beloved Creative,
I used to think that if it weren't for the childhood trauma I would have never come in touch with my creativity, or my teaching/healing abilities, or my capacity to question and create love where there was little or none. I assumed that all my diverse creative mediums and the dying need to create in so many different ways is what helped me survive and thrive during grave c
hallenges in my life. You see, we are wired to build stories around our experiences so we can validate what new choices we make and who we are becoming. But, our life events and stories DONT make us who we are. It is our natural instinctive Self that draws relevant events to us and weaves our life stories as we live them. That core, essential self which has its own values, needs and purposes keeps nudging us to say what we say and do what we do, ultimately creating the one story we call "my life". Does this sound like we are at the mercy of this instinctive Self?! Well, here's the good news - this Instinctive Self is a our CREATIVE SELF. This self is very familiar to us as the child that we were born as. All of us are born curious, effortless, playful, joyful, relaxed, fearless, generous, lovable and loving. All of us, without exception were little geniuses. However during the growing up years (integration with the world around) we forget this for a good reason. So that, that which we were born with and took for granted, that which was natural and in the background for us, could one day become a conscious and core part of us - OUR CREATIVE IDENTITY. So one day we would step back and now choose that "Natural Effortless Creative Self". Understand what IT is and how it operates through us. What it wants to bring alive in the world through us and how it plans to keep us safe, happy, fulfilled, and abundant. Stop and write in your journal - what is your relationship with your creativity? Does it help you thrive? Does it bring you answers when you have none? Does it help you stay happy and even joyful when the world around you is collapsing? Does it whisper to you what to say at a board meeting or on a date and that works like a charm? Does it send you dreams of what your next product should be? Does it cuddle up with you and tell you stories when you are lonely? Mine does. And I am proud to say, my creativity has helped me not only survive many grave challenges but also shown me how to thrive with it. It has built a muscle of "aliveness" in me which flexes when times are tough and shows me things for what they are, thus elevating my consciousness, making me kinder and braver and even richer and capable to love more. At 50 I can wholeheartedly declare that -
My True Nature is Creative, Calm, Centered in Service. This revelation is amongst the many I receive, everyday, with my beloved - A Course in Miracles. For decades I did inner work, and spiritual practices thinking I needed to fix that pain, the existential angst, and trauma. Even when, in reality, I had innumerable mystical experiences at every bend, I never stopped to ask if it is I who is creating my life story and not the other way round. This "I" is not the ego "I", hence my small identity could not have figured it out until I was shown that in 2016 the final "wake up" call. The True Self does not need to know itself. My limited, human self had to go through all those challenging, death-defying experiences in order to be exhausted enough to rest in its One True Self, The Creative Self, finally. Until I decided that THERE IS NO OTHER WAY but to Give up and find my OWN sweet way to surrender. It turns out my way to surrender to the Great Intelligence of Life was playful, creative, musical - it was in the space of painting, poetry, theater, dance, and music that I finally SAW THE LIGHT - My own Unique Light which was linked to The ONE Light that loves us all. Its taken me 4 years to find the readiness to meet you where you are and help you too to remember your One True Instinctual Creative Self. I am deeply grateful to my teacher Lisa Natoli and my dear friend
Dola Dasgupta to have walked with me every step of the way. Click the link and reach out. Perhaps you too need just one conversation to make the shift into your One True Nature, which works, which knows how to love you, guide you to a life of joy, peace, and abundance. I Love You! Deepali
