30/11/2022
a little update
You may notice that I changed my username.
I've been thinking for a long time to change it and getting closer to my own identity. My former name; Sega Kucing Art, is inspired by the local dish called sega kucing. It was my favorite since it's small, compact, easy to consume and very nostalgic. Yet, this name is not easy to spell and if you hide the 'art' part, you will not find my art but the dish instead. I never regret choosing that name, but I want to change to something better.
My new name; Mary Bell, is a free translation of my real name. Those who knows my name history will understand why I chose this one and it's easy to spell/remember. I can put any persona to it without people thinking about dish.
Changing my name isn't everything I do. I've been having ups and downs lately and sometimes it's hard to wake up in the morning without feeling sh*tty. I blamed the pandemic at first and every uncertainity, but in the end I realized that it's me who have to change. I owe many things, to myself; to my friends; to my clients; to my surroundings. I want to pay it up little by little, correcting my behaviour, stop blaming myself and look/accept for more help. I was obsessed with perfection without realizing that it's my biggest obstacle. Nobody perfect after all and it's okay.
