16/07/2020
I’m laying on my bed at the end of the day, just before going to sleep. I’m deep in my thoughts as always. It has become a habit of me to think about my day’s events. But today was a bit different.
My mind went back to a few days ago. I remembered the argument I had with my friend. “Why did it end like this?”, I thought. We were talking peacefully about this certain topic that I wouldn’t like to mention now, maybe later. Then the conversation heated up, and we were both screaming in each other’s faces.
My mind is confused. It’s strange that our peaceful conversation turned into an argument. I’m playing this scene in my mind over and over again. I’m trying to find out what happened.
Slowly I realized the problem. Our peaceful talk was turned over when we disagreed on something. We forgot all the previous things we both agreed on. We only focused on the one point we disagreed on.
Now that I know what was wrong with our conversation, I feel more confused. I always thought that I’m a person who accepts others. I believed that I could accept what’s different. I thought I could accept anyone, even if they had different beliefs. I’m always telling people to try and accept others but what am I doing now?
Saying is always easier than doing, I guess. It’s always very easy to accept someone who’s like me. Now I know it’s not that easy to really accept others. Knowing that they’re doing something I don’t like makes it even harder.
My mind is going to explode but I have to keep thinking hard. I have to fix this issue. I can’t stay like this, saying yet not doing. I think that accepting others doesn’t necessarily mean accepting their actions. We can disagree, we can be different. But we’re still humans at the end. We accept each other as humans not for anything else.
I can’t say that I have been accepting others until this moment. The moment I was faced with the differences and disagreements. Acceptance is really acceptance when challenged with the opposite of what we believe in and the opposite of what we act like.
Now I’m ending my day with this quote that I’ll be having in my dreams.
“Acceptance of all humans as our own kind doesn't weaken us or belittle us in any manner, rather it only magnifies our innate humanity and brings out the true human in us.” - Abhijit Naskar
Have an acceptable night of sleep!
