01/02/2021
I have something to say
About art, life and sincerity. This painting is called "The only Game in Town"
I've wanted to paint this painting for a while but I always felt that it didn't merit an existence since it really has nothing to do with high minded theories or -insert esoteric jargon here-. It is about depression, anxiety, my struggles about living with my OCD diagnosis etc. It is about how life is the only game in town. If anyone has seen Hannah Gatsby's "stand up" Nannett (if you haven't then go see it) you might remember that she said something to the effect of "sincerity is the last taboo in comedy". I believe that sincerity is the last taboo in art. Yes, we may create something that is true to our heart and mind and is actually real but we mask it behind esoteric artist statements and impersonal instagram posts out of shame or the fear of the judgment of our peers that our subject matter does not deal with -insert esoteric jargon here-.
I started making art because it gave me true joy and it was an affordable form of entertainment. My father used to bring home old research papers from his lab for me to draw on the blank side of when I was a kid. So my relationship with art began with me drawing stick figures on the back of essays on microbiology. That is of course in stark contrast with my surface of choice today (twill weave, 250gr cotton canvas, 4 layers of gesso) but I'm still always searching for that feeling I got from creating back then, before everything got bogged down by theory, intent, modernism, post modernism and post post modernism.
Today art is no longer an affordable form of entertainment, it is quite the opposite. It is my biggest expense and I wouldn't use a word like "joyful" to describe it but I still love it. It makes me feel good (most of the time) it's is a reprieve from life, it is meditation, an outlet and my consistent life companion.
With all that said I'm just here to let you know that I am going to try to no longer care if my art is too frivolous, cute, lowbrow, or what ever other word one might use as a synonym for Feminine. I like it and I don't care if you don't (but please like this post)