02/13/2021
Chatelaine, baby!!!!!
I remember the exact moment four years ago when I hit publish on my Etsy page. I was sitting at the kitchen table shaking, convinced this was a huge mistake. Weaving was a hobby I picked up on mat leave. Something I loved to do to pass the time while my first born napped. It made me happy and calmed my anxiety. I never anticipated anything beyond that. Gradually, people started asking to buy my work, so the next logical step was to start an online shop. For me, this next step was terrifying. Like so many of us, I’m deeply insecure and often paralyzed by fear. I was an over achiever in my youth and this quality nearly killed me in my early twenties. I quit drinking a decade ago and at that moment, I became a very private person. I was full of fear and shame and wasn’t quite sure where I fit in as a non drinker in a world full of partying. My circle got smaller, I started working for the AFM to help people with addictions, and finished a social work degree. I was quietly, happily living my life.
So naturally, I was pretty leery of putting my art and myself out there publicly. But that night, I ignored the fear and hit publish. I quite literally said screw it, what’s the worst that can happen?! I knew all "my people" would be there to support me, no matter what happened. So I just went for it. If you told me that night that four years later I’d see my work in Chatelaine, I would have laughed you right out of my house. I think I’m writing all of this because it’s such an important example of why you should not to let fear prevent you from taking action in your life. This business has given me so much. I have met the loveliest friends, built an amazing community, and started teaching others the craft I love so much. I get to be a mom who’s mostly at home with my kids, while also working my ass off at something of my very own. The best part of it all is seeing pieces I’ve made, actual pieces of my heart, hanging in your homes all over the world. Thank you for being on this crazy ride with me. Thank you for believing in me, even on days I didn’t believe in myself. This is your friendly reminder to stop caring what people (cont..)