03/17/2026
When I undertook making this project for from concept to reality, I didn’t grasp that it would become an obsession that overtook my life for a few years. Thank you for your patience going thru the 20 versions I sent. This is a music thesis devoted to Jazz, something I studied. I guess a lot you don’t know this about me. I went to school for music,sound engineering, sound design, I got a degree in music contracts. I went into this life as ride or die, all or nothing. No room for failure.
To gather everything and perform it live. Whether you like or not, I don’t care-this one is truly for me.
This was my Hollands Opus moment of my career.
This idea of performing this live and captured to vinyl was in the back of my head for over 27 years. It took me that long to gather the talent, mindset, studio equipment and skills to undertake such a feat. I had literally re built my studio for this project.
After the project was done I didn’t feel joy, I felt empty and emotionally drained. I cried for days once it was finally sent for mastering. There were low points after where I felt since my personal triumph was completed -I should just stop doing music altogether. The work I did for a while after was not my best, most of it ended up on bandcamp as strange concepts. This obsession to create my personal triumph kept me going thru some of the hardest curveballs and difficult moments my personal life has ever seen. Despite the lows after, I feel that this project might have saved my life. I don’t tell soppy mushy personal things very often, but this needed to be told.
