05/07/2025
its been three months now
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i wish i could call you one more time
hear your voice one more time
hear you laugh one more time
i wish i could hug you one more time
hold your hand one more time
sometimes i wish you had taken me with you because i don't know how to function in this world without you
i wish you were still here with me
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i'm struggling to make sense of this world without you in it
i'm struggling to dream of a future knowing you wouldn't be in it
i know this is selfish of me because at least you're at peace now and at most you're not in pain anymore
but daddy, your unconditional love is the safety net i lost... and now i have to find it elsewhere, or within myself i guess
so i talk to you everyday, nonstop in hopes that i can hear or even just feel a glimmer of your voice calling me "motor mouth" or "แจแ : แถแฎแถแญ" again
i sing our songs to you everyday, even if it's just a hum to myself in hopes that it calls your spirit to me
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i'll miss you every minute of every day and until i get to see you again...
for you, i promise i'll learn to live with the hole in my heart and in our lives
for you, i promise ill learn to get back on my feet again
for you, i promise to live my life to the fullest
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i love you with every beat of my heart
your forever princess, xo
