08/10/2025
📣 Anybody out there ?!?!
…”Annual update”? Sure why not 🤷🏻♀️🤣
So August 24th marks 1 year since I exploded my finger during Slopitch Playoffs… I then played for another couple weeks hoping it would be fine, like an IDIOT 🤡🤡 and made it much MUCH worse🫣 a year later and I’m still wearing my lame brace (when I can find it), still using my secret silly putty ball for physio, still wearing big chunky rings to help my phat knuckle appear smaller 🥴
In all honesty I started losing my spark for knots after losing Papa the previous summer. I think a lot of it really was me just not wanting to sit with my thoughts during those quiet mindful, moments of creating… while everything in my head and heart were VERY loud. So I shoved my string into the basement and avoided it. Completely.
I feel like breaking my favourite finger 🖕🏼, on my dominant hand, was the universe’s way of saying TAKE A DAMN BREAK!
So I have. A really really long one…
I took a break from the burn out, the hustle, the signing up for markets, the organizing sitters and schedules, the sales, the profits… but really the connections are what I’ve missed. I miss my workshops and spending quality time with randoms humans who chose to spend their time with ME. I miss seeing smiles on seniors and kid’s faces when they figure out they CAN do it!
Since breaking my finger I’ve stepped back from all of it. I had varicose veins removed (twice), I started working part time (after 3 years of being SAH/self employed) I set fire to a couple old bridges that didn’t deserve to still be standing… 😎❤️🔥
it’s been A YEAR.
Are there projects I have stirring around in the back of my mind? Yep. Do I have a tiny bit of guilt about my radio silence ? Of course.
BUT I chose to worry about something way more important than others expectations of me… I chose ME.