15/08/2026
Six years ago, to pass those long lockdown days, I bought a block of polymer clay and a small toaster oven. I sat down, made one single figure, looked at the result, and decided it wasn’t good enough. I put everything away.
That was 2020.
Now, six years later, I have picked the clay back up. Sitting at my desk this week, the realization hit me: those six years were going to pass regardless of what I did.
If I had stuck with it - consistently practising making ugly, lopsided, imperfect little figures - I would now have six years of skill and progress behind me. Instead, I have a six year gap and the exact same starting line.
We often convince ourselves that if we aren't naturally talented at something right out of the gate, it isn't worth our time. We treat beginner-level output as a personal failure rather than a required phase of growth.
Here is what I am keeping in mind as I start over:
The clock ticks no matter what. Six years will pass whether you practice a skill or abandon it. You might as well spend that time building something.
Perfectionism is just self-sabotage in disguise. Expecting mastery on attempt number one is an unreasonable standard that only serves to stop you from trying.
Action yields experience; avoidance yields nothing. Every bad attempt teaches you something about technique. Giving up simply pauses your learning.
I missed six years of lessons by giving up on myself, but I am not letting the next six pass the same way.
If there is something you have been avoiding because you are worried you won't be good at it: start anyway.
Give yourself permission to be a beginner. The time will pass regardless.