29/11/2024
Christopher Fantasy (Chris Otchy)
Recurring Fantasy
Mastered by Holosuite š
Reposted from
Recurring Fantasy is a sonic exploration born from my time spent in Berlin. Over the last two visits Iāve made there, I found myself wandering the cityās streets, soaking in the energy, the chaos, and the quiet moments that often go unnoticed. But it wasnāt just the city itself that inspired meāit was the sounds I discovered there. Analog, forgotten, and full of texture, those tapes became a window into a world that felt as fragmented and dreamlike as my own thoughts.
I created Recurring Fantasy using just my laptop and modular synths, two instruments that allowed me to bend sound into shapes I hadnāt imagined before. I felt like I was piecing together a collage of my own mind, stitching together fragments of melodies and textures into something cohesive but not quite whole. Each track is a reflection of a moment in Berlin: a walk down a narrow alley, the hum of a subway station, the reverberation of distant conversations. The cityās influence is there, but itās wrapped in a sense of dreamlike abstraction.
But despite the album being finished, I held onto it for a year. I wasnāt sure if it was ready. I wasnāt sure if I was ready. It was like releasing a part of myself that I wasnāt quite ready to share with the world, a bit like holding an injured sea lion in my handsācareful, unsure, but hopeful. I wanted to wait until it was āhealedāāuntil I felt ready to let it live on its own in the world.
Now, a year later, I realize that the hesitation was a part of the journey. The album is its own thing now, its life no longer tied to my doubt. Just as the sealion eventually returns to the sea, Recurring Fantasy is now free to roam, to evolve, and to find its place in the world. It feels like letting goānot of the music itself, but of the fear that once held it back.
This album is no longer just mine; itās yours to experience, interpret, and feel. And Iām no longer afraid of what that means. Itās time to release it into the world and let it make its own waves. Thanks to for his excellent work on this! Much appreciated, friend.