The inner writings of my mind

04/02/2023

So I fall asleep and some grub steals my dead girls purse with ,500 bucks in it now I don't give a f**k about the money it had my dead girls stuff in it the last things I have of hers ...

25/07/2022

" for you to walk on "
There's so much to show you...
There's so much you don't see...
I want to pave a path for you...
This path will set you free...

This is just your path....
If u let me show you then you will see.. That on this path I pave for you....
On this path hand paved by me...

This path I will pave.... Is just for you...
Its a path to your happy place... After all that you've been through...

This path it will be beautiful.... This path it will be stone...
On this path I pave for you...
There is no more being alone...

So come on let me show you...
Take my hand and you will see...
That on this path I pave for you...
It will end with you and me .....

14/07/2022

18/02/2022

"GIVE ME WHAT I WANT AND I'LL GO AWAY"

To me it's a game and now we're gonna play...
Give me what I want and I'll go away...
God as said to tell you he ignores you when you pray....
I have his permission he understands why I need to stay...
It's very f**king simple for your sins you must pay...
Just give me what I want and then I'll go away...
I'm gonna take your soul- you should listen to what I say....
Surely you understand me its as clear as f**king day...
C**t give me what I want and I'll go away...
I've changed my f**king mind I think I'm gonna stay....
10 SIMPLE FU***NG WORDS -

GIVE ME WHAT I WANT AND THEN ILL GO AWAY"

18/02/2022

To my king, my best friend and his favourite COEY!

Firstly THANK YOU Adam... For everything you've done over the past few months. F**k it's been tough on me, I'm emotionally f**ked already let alone any extra s**t.

There's a few people who actually know what's going on with Hoops and I. And believe me thi is isn't our "normal".

We met on Tinda almost 4 1/2 years ago... And f**k it's been an adventure from the very first day!

It's just change... Changing of the guards perhaps?

Thank you for everything you've given me, taught me, etc

I love you Adam Hooper with all my heart and soul...

Only the strong survive ###x

04/01/2022

"MY OLD 410"

I'm sick of f**king everything ..
I'm sick to death of everyone ...
So I'm off today to dig it up yes you c**t dig up my gun ...
It always sorts the truth from lies ...
It always sorts who lives and dies ..
It always shows the boys from men ...
F**k I've missed my old 410 ...
C**ts like you carry weapons to fell bigger ..
I only carry mine when I'm Gunna pull the trigger..
A single tap to the back of the head ...
It delivered a dose of fast moving led ..
f**k all you c**ts that think you are pranksters ... In reality you f**kers are just plastic gangsters .. then after I shoot you it goes back in the ground ... Right next to you c**t where you will never be found ..
It won't be forever I will need it again ...
F**k I miss my old 410 ..

10/07/2021

"Nothing left to love"

When it comes down to being my turn to shove...
There's a hollowed out me with nothing left to love.
The truth of the story of how Satan was cast from above,
Is one of nothing but pure fiction...
There was simply no nothing left to love....
The pain and the anguish of loss fitting like a glove...
Comes from lifetimes fighting...
A lifetime with nothing left to love.
So f**k off with the olive branch,
I hope you stay as sympathetic as the dove...
Cos you see once again -
I'm the one with nothing left to love!

10/04/2021

Hoops post from 3 years ago today...

IVE done quiet a lot if soul searching these past few months .. Searched the deepest parts of my mind .. Are we just destined for a certain kind of life and no matter what or how hard you try .. You always end up the same ... I havnt had the easiest life its been hard .. I wouldn't change a thing .. I don't blame the way I am because of that life .. I am who I am .. And that's who I be no matter the company or where I am .. I say to people I'm a warrior because I just keep fighting on I get knocked down .. I get back up .. I can survive .. But a warrior will always destroy everything he loves .. Everything he loves and touches that is in life and heart .. That becomes his soul purpose .. It will die or be destroyed... Or taken from him ... But a warrior is for the people .. To help others .. To defend the weak .. Now in life I can always sort out other peoples lives and help them .. But I can't even f**king help myself or sort my life out ... Is that a bad thing .. U see I love other people and will do anything to help.. Now people are always saying .. You must love yourself in order to love others .... So if I learn to love myself where does that leave me .. I'm a warrior. So everything I love .. I get close to and adore .. Gets destroyed it dies .. So if I can love myself I will kill that part of me that is a warrior that helps people all the time and goes out if his way to help a stranger .. Even if its to smile ... Then could I love and not have it destroyed .. Not have it die ... Not have it all f**king taken from me .... But then I would I be a selfish person for not being able to help everyone else and only help myself .. And go out of my way to make a stranger smile .... I hurt .. I cry .. I have honour .. So I'm going to keep loving others before myself ... I'm a warrior .... I just can't love personally.. And give my heart and soul to the love of my life ... We need warriors to carry the pain .... I'm a warrior ...

27/02/2021

Well we've never been apart this long
Everything reminds me of you it's wrong
I miss your face, and even your feet
But it will mot destroy us they will not defeat
I'll use this time to get myself stronger and stable
So when we are together again our dreams will be able
I can't write like you - f**king no body can
You can't bloody smoke I can imagine your phang
I miss you my king, but please don't worry about me
Our family is solid you'll have to wait and see
You'll thrive in there adapt as you usually do
And I'll get my s**t together I just don't know with who

Stay strong and be patient... Lucky it's a lesson you've learnt
The respect and the honour you've bloody well earnt

You're always on my mind I love you too much
Laying in hospital all I want is your touch

Hope to hear from you soon - even to hear your voice now
I can't sleep without you I just don know how

Love your queen, your lioness and best coey
It's only been a week and I'm already toey
LMFAO

Miss you Adam

23/01/2021

"The day that I died "

If I was to ask you ...
About the day I died ..
Could you have give an answer ..
Could you have replied ..
It was not in my head ...
I asked and you lied ...
That day that I asked you..
The day that I died......
You let go and I fell....
You never even cried ...
It was on that day my darling ...
It was on that day I died ..
I remember that day clearly ...
That awful day I died...
You just watched and let me fall..
Both your hands they were tied...
You said forever you will love me...
But you killed all I had inside ...
It's on this fateful day I speak of ..
It's on this day I died ...
I thought that I would hate you ...
Lord knows how hard I tried ...
I lost my wings ...
I lost my heart ...
To hell a one way ride ....
You just f**king left me ..
Then you run away to hide ...
You have no love ...
You have no soul ...
You have no f**king pride ...
That's the day it happened baby ...
That's the day I died .......

22/01/2021

"There's a world I created"

There's a world I created up here in my head,
That's where I am immortal and my loved ones they aren't dead,
It's in this world I created I can completely just be me,
In this world I created it's in this world I'm free,
I had to create it you see - it's the only way I knew,
So a world I created where I'd always have you,
In this world I created when I touch you I can feel,
I spend so muchtime there the old world don't seem real,
Infact I need someone to tell me if I'm alive or if I'm dead,
But in this world I created I much prefer it here instead...

22/01/2021

"I'D HATE TO BE YOU"

You make me sick to my stomach to the point that I spew,
You miserable c**t F**k I'd hate to be you,
How the f**k do you come up with the twisted things you do,
You're f**king evil you psycho I'd hate to be you,
You just sit there speechless well aware that it's all true,
Have you ever heard before c**t I'd hate to be you,
You see the very first time I saw you it was that instant that I knew,
I stood there looking in the mirror and said "I'd hate to be you"