I'm into writing songs, creating things, skateboarding, skatepark design, clothing design and to the best of my ability and resources try to do good things for others. Yes, both you and me have to pay for it but we work, we buy less of something else and we can save up for what we want. I grew up with very little money of my own and have stayed so for most of my life, even if I had soe nice months
now and then after working hard and saving. I had so many dreams as a kid, but also so many doubts of what I could do since I was a "normal nobody" and kept being reminded of it. I was not a talent, not a stunner, not a rich kid
or a "go getter" but I could dream of it. As I got over 18 I was also not so many fun things i saw other be, an athlete, an adventurer, a musician, a diver, a skydiver, a business man, an actor, a star and so on. But at least I had started skateboarding at twelve and it slowly changed my attitude to dreams. It made me realize that if i work for something like a skateboard trick I actually ended up making and learning the trick after a while, even if it was a trick that I could not do and that noone expected me to make. Sometimes even tricks that noone probably had done or even thought of before but that turned out not being so hard, It was just that noone had really tried that hard to do them. A seed was planted there when I understood that this applies to life in general and I started to understand that I could learn and do things that I wanted even if it was not according to anyones "manual" or templates of how we always have done things. Many years at a time I would forget this and accomplish very few of my dreams. Many years I would also try and try different dreams but fail and fail and give up for some years. A small taste of succeeding made me dream a little bigger and then a lot of people waned me to fail, writing that I would fail in article comments, calling me an idiot for trying, making secret pacts to work against me and so on. Not for the first time but stronger than before. It made me frustrated and a bit sad but also made me think that well, I'm gonna make it without you and in spite of your pacts and in spite of others harassment and I will make a love sculpture to remind myself and others that your way is not our way, our way is love and wishing well for others. I would also make sculptures telling people to not give up their dreams and to live free, because that's what I know that I had long forgotten, that most of us needed to be reminded of. With my own page I want to remind the people who connect with me that all of us can do anything we wish and dream for of if we keep trying and don't give up. I also hope that the people that connect with me will remind me of the same at times because I stlll struggle a lot with my life and my dreams and many times I need to be reminded that I can make it and that even if I don't I am not alone. There are always ways to get where we want if we have the courage to try not once, but over and over again, in new ways. I wish someone kept reminding me of this through my life so I will try to be that reminder to others. But I will not just go on about these things, most posts will probably just describe my everyday life. I don't. Yet. :)
