14/06/2020
Final Message To Him
Been waiting for this day my whole life,
To explain to him why my life feels like a lie,
Why each year on this day I want to die,
Look at myself in the mirror to see if I have his eyes,
Because from my mom I have inherited only the heart,
Height , body and the rest of the features are prolly his sister's.
Been waiting for this day my whole life.
To write you messages you'll probably never read,
Anger contained and regrets-filled,
But at least keeping me sane for the pain,
I cause myself everyday thinking of you,
Wondering if you even know I exist,
If you'll love me when we meet,
Or I'm just one of your mopped up mistakes.
Been waiting for this day my whole life,
To actually let all this slide,
To let you know I'm grateful for you participation,
In bringing to earth this fine piece of innovation,
The hate you planted turned into a motivation,
So you should pull up at my graduation celebration,
To see how brilliant and strong your creation has become.
This is the 4th letter I'm writing to you.
But the 1st ever to be thanking instead of crying,
Begging for your love all these years never helped.
So if my messages ever reach to you,
I want you to know I Forgive You,
Give my heart to another man,
Who'll watch me walk down the isle,
And be a father to me kids.
This is me moving on from You, The Past.
You are my dad still,
So I'll just drink to your existence ,
Happy Fathers' Day Old Man
Myself-