19/05/2025
WHEN WE WERE IN SUWON , AT ONE OF THE PARTIES THAT WAS ORGANISED BY THE FESTIVAL FOR US TO NETWORK , TALK KWOK SING SONG
SOMEONE ASKED BE ABOUT MY ART . ALI WAS NEXT TO ME .
AFTER I BLA BLA BLA ART , ALI CHIMED IN AND SAID , "ARTISTS LIKE PAALAN DON'T GET AS MANY OPPORTUNITIESTO SHOW WORKS BACK HOME . THERE IS ALOT OF RED TAPE BLA BLA.BLA "
IT MADE ME FEEL SEEN AND WE PROCEED TO TALK ABOUT HOW THE MALAYSIAN ART SCENE IS SO READY TO EXCLUDE BODIES LIKE MINE . AND PLATFORM MORE PALATABLE ARTISTS.
I WAS IN SUWON BECAUSE OF LEYSHA .
I GOT TO PERFORM FOR THE FIRST TIME AS MYSELF BECAUSE OF LEYSHA .
I GOT TO PERFORM WITHOUT THE CLOSET F**KERY BECAUSE OF LEYSHA .
( SOMEONE PLS STUDY TRANS PEOPLE BEING IN TH2 XLOSET ANS TRYING TO PERFORM . COS THAT S**T F***S WITH YOU KAW KAW )
I AM GETTING THE FLOWERS I DESERVE BECAUSE OF LEYSHA .
Y'ALL GOT TO MEET PAPPA AND BHAIKAR BECAUSE OF LEYSHA .
THIS PROJECT IS SO SAYANG BECAUSE OF LEYSHA .
I HOPE YOU FIND A LEYSHA IN YOUR LIFE TO LOVE YOU AND TO RESPECT YOU AND TO REMIND YOU OF YOUR FULL MOON MAGIC THROUGH HER LIGHT.
I HOPE YOU FIND A LEYSHA TO MAKE ART WITH .
I HOPE YOU FIND A LEYSHA TO SMOKE CI******ES WITH AND LAUGH ABOUT THE WORLD ,
EVEN AS IT BURNS AROUND YOU .
IHOP3 YOU FIND A LEYSHA
TO TRACE CONSTELLATIONS IN YOUR SCARS ,
AND TELL YOU THEY LOOK LIKE DESTINIES .
I HOPE YOU FIND A LEYSHA WHO WAITS FOR YOUR WORDS TO ARRIVE ,
NOT TO FIX YOU ,
BUT TO WITNESS YOU—
A BODY , A STORY , A STORM , A STAR , A GOD
SOME PEOPLE HAVE GODS WITHIN THEM
SOME PEOPLE ARE TEMPLES IN HUMAN FORM .
LEYSHA IS THAT FOR ME .
A PLACE TO RETURN TO .
A PLACE THAT NEVER ONCE SAID:
“BE SMALLER.”
ONLY, SHINE.
WE MET AT THE EDGE OF A WATERFALL
WHERE ART WASN’T A COMMODITY ,
BUT A COMPASS BACK TO OURSELVES .
WHERE TRANSNESS WASN’T A CAVE TO HIDE IN ,
BUT A SKY TO RISE THROUGH .
AND IN THAT SKY ,
LEYSHA WOULD DANCE THE TERINAI AND SING ME LULLABIES AFTER NOURISHING THE GODS INSIDE ME .
I HOPE YOU FIND A LEYSHA TO SHOW YOU HOW MOVE WITHOUT SHRINKING.
I HOPE YOU FIND A LEYSHA SHOW YOU HOW TO SPEAK EVEN WHEN YOU VOICE TREMBLES
LIKE A MATCHSTICK IN FRONT OF THE AC
I AM NOT HERE BY ACCIDENT -
