08/11/2025
Everyone told me it would happen, and I now know it is true. I wished it away too fast. I don't recall the last time. Playing as a kid. I always seemed to look at the world differently than most of my friends. Why did I want to grow up so fast... My mother would say don't wish it away. Don't forget to pray. You will have to be an adult soon enough. But that's all I did want. I enjoyed talking to my friends parents more than I enjoyed the play date. I never wanted to be wild and crazy. I had a good head on my shoulders. I was told to go play. Looking back I really did wish most of my childhood away. Being independent sounded more fun to me I would say I dream of being a mom someday. Or being a bigger more beautiful me. Being grown and able to make my own choices of my own. How happy I would some day be. Playing on the sidewalk, I walked off the ball field and hung up my bat.because I had to believe in that. Now I blow bubbles for my kids to pop. I watch them pop. My wish came true I'm a mom of more than more one and than 2. I have 4 kids... And I love yours two. Wow I'm way past 18. I'm off on my own. Someone help me. I feel so alone.(I'm never alone) I got here so fast. Now I tell my kids to hurry when all I wanna do is slow down time. I'm rushing my own goal line. Boom I'm still on the 33 yard line. I've thrown up the cap and gown. Tucked in a box no where to be found. I know how to fix my own crown. I do not have to ask my mom to drive me around town.well okay sometimes I still do...
Why do I look at the past. It is because I wanted to grew up so fast. I do not wish to go back, I just hope my kids learn from me and do not wish it away too fast. Now I'm all work and no play. I'm here to say... You dont have to be perfect. Remember you will get there in time. Go and play don't wonder about what Mommy's and daddy's will say. You will wish your dream to grow up didn't come true. You will question who you are. Life as a mom is often hard. O look at you my dear son. When did your feet get that big? My wee little one.. please slow down... As I look in the mirror I see my gray hair. I'm getting older. Is no place to turn around? I should know by now. Why can't I remember to enjoy this merry go round.. this game of life we are all just young kids learning. The fair will end soon and it's time to go.... The angles will call me to play. And I'll walk up to heaven as a child of God...
Life is short this I know so why can't I enjoy it now. ..
Maybe I've figured life out and the time has come. We close the chapter we slide into home. We smile and know we never know how tomorrow will go. Tomato, potato. What ever we say. Why wish away today and wait till tomorrow. Look back on yesterday and it may make life better... Memories in the making every day.. Don't forget to tell yourself. Your gonna be okay. Don't forget. The promise of a better day... Enjoy the now. Be a kid at heart. But don't forget where to start.... Ready set go... The games not over you just started to slow.
Reset your clock and hydrate. Refocus and grow....
For today I've been waiting for my world to slow. ...
Married to you for 11 years ....
Today I said they words let your dad know.to the youngest.. as I got out the shower... His words did eco.... mom! Can I go? .... He left the door open....
As the oldest left for work. And said I love you... I heard I love you too...
Eddie mowed the grass and NASCAR was on. Happy anniversary...
It's mother's day. I'm a mom and I'll always love you.
The moments I've wished for as a kid are coming true right now.
Even if ...
It's hard to see or feel it some days. I will still always love you all. Even Till I rest my head with the dead. And my soul disappears lost in the minds of the others I loved. A part of me will forever be part of you. .. don't grow up to fast. We never know what day will be our last.
Amanda Tucker.
May 2025
