Princess CharChar’s beauty in the breakdown

04/08/2025

Do I hate relationships or am I aromantic? Do I really want a romance or just some one who’s there? Do I hate s*x because there’s aspects to me that are gross and I’m only comfortable with myself cause I can’t disappoint anyone?
Or am I so traumatized I’m putting labels on my failures as a partner? Did society just hardwire into my brain that I need a relationship to be relevant, but I got so comfortable being by myself that having another person around is just annoying?

02/16/2025

So let go, so let go and jump in
Oh, well, whatcha waiting for? It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
-Frou Frou “Let Go”

Some of my problems with moving on, continuing, fighting and working hard for the life I need is because I’m protecting myself from the hurt and pain that comes with getting my act together, if that makes sense. Before transition, I generally “pick myself up my the boot straps” and just put the work in. I was also younger and the world wasn’t so… gross. My brain never really thought like an adult, but now I just feel like a kid in an aging body. Hormones are amazing. And I’m protecting her from this world.
The beauty in the breakdown for me is knowing this world is rotten to its core, that I may go crazy fighting it to exist… there’s still beauty. Crying is beautiful and cathartic. Loss is beautiful and haunting. Happiness is beautiful and fleeting.

07/09/2024

❤️

08/04/2023

Sentai is working on a Shoresy anime

08/04/2023

That one day in SF when the Warfield said I was good 😊

08/04/2023

08/04/2023

This is never not funny