04/21/2021
Day 30 of // “Never forget why you came here.”
These days
And today, maybe especially
Are so incredibly emotion-filled
I don’t feel particularly poetic today so I’m just going to make an abridged list of things that took up space in my world today to illustrate—
:: Thinking about my dad a lot as I have been going through boxes of childhood keepsakes and reading cards he wrote me throughout the years and learning more about him today than I ever could have at the time he wrote me those cards
:: Thinking about who I used to be as a teenager as I read old notes from myself and wondering how much of her I still carry around with me
:: Thinking about the handful of people I need to text back, but for some reason I haven’t yet
:: Navigating the news cycle just in terms of caring about my fellow humans but also being very sensitive to the energy that accompanies big news days and also learning how to navigate my own energy through all of it
:: Spending all day thinking I should go outside for a run or a walk and then not doing it because navigating time management on my own between a full time job / multiple personal projects / a big upcoming life change / taking care of myself and my cat and my living space / getting appropriate rest / finding moments to relax and be joyful all in a day, each and every day, for the past year during this pandemic when human contact has been so limited is a lot (maybe this is why it’s hard to sometimes text people back)
:: Thinking about my taxes that I still need to finish 👀
Just an abridged list.
In the beautiful mess of it all
This nutty thing we call life
Let us never forget why we came —
To be the light-filled beings that we are
To be the love that we wish to see
To be the joy that comes natural to our souls
💫
Today is also technically day 31;
But I wrote this yesterday,
Again as I fell asleep (lol)
I said it once and I’ll say it again, consistency sits with a bit of contradiction to a sensitive soul — what can I say 🤷♀️
Anyway,
May your heart be light today 💕
May you be more you today than you’ve ever been before 🌸
All love,
Cristina