08/19/2019
For months I have been desperately yearning for break through. Earlier this year I found my spiritual life and my relationship with Papa go kind of cold. I was excited for the school year to end because I thought that I would be stepping into a season of harvest; all of my hard work and dedication was going to finally pay off. But it didn’t happen that way. It took longer than I thought it would to find a job, I wasn’t feeling 100% about moving to another state, and I certainly did not expect for my new life to be as quiet and uneventful as it was. Feeling so heartbroken and confused about where my life was headed, I turned off the “Open” sign to my heart, shut the doors and locked God out. I was so hurt and lost and frustrated that I didn’t know what to say to Him, so I said nothing, but there would be times where I would silently yearn for His voice and His comfort while in the wilderness, holding onto the tiny strings of faith that were still hangin on. And y’all, he is sooo faithful to reveal to us what we need!! He listens to the quiet prayers of our hearts. In the past week God has taken all of the parts of my life that were seemingly empty and filled them to the brim so that they are now overflowing!!! I now get to run into the break through, full speed ahead into my Father’s arms, into His comfort and grace. I realize that sometimes I quit way too early, jumping straight to the conclusion that God isn’t going to be faithful this time, but haha the joke is on me every time, because He is faithful EVERY TIME. My God is a mystery, and the world may not understand Him all of the time (and trust me I don’t either) but I’m so thankful that He is faithful to provide. And He does so at just the right time with exactly what I need. The break through is coming my friends, keep holding steadfast to the Father’s love. 💕 also I really don’t know what I’m doing with my hand in the last pic haha whoops 🤪
