08/25/2024
I believe it is time to provide an update and explain the reasons for my prolonged absence over the past 25 months.
Approximately two years ago, I received the distressing news that my mother had suffered a stroke while driving. During her hospitalization, doctors discovered she had stage 4 lung cancer. I traveled frequently to Delaware during that time and was upfront with everyone.
As my mother's condition deteriorated, my Pop, who had been caring for her, made the decision to cancel most of his life insurance, mistakenly believing that she would pass away first. Tragically, in December, my Pop was injured by a storm door and fell, leading to the discovery of small cell carcinoma throughout his lungs. He passed away just 12 days later. You can assume the rest.
During this period, the family rallied to support my mother for the next 6 months of her life. I stayed with her for five weeks, followed by my aunt for three months, and others contributed as well.
I returned home on June 28th, planning to bring my children back to visit her on July 4th. My brother, who was with her, advised against coming due to anticipated crowds and suggested waiting until the following weekend. She lived in a tourist/beach town in Delaware. Unfortunately, on July 9th, I received a late call from my Aunt informing me of a rapid decline in Moms condition. I left the next day because I had to find someone to watch the kids. I got there on her birthday, July 10th around 8:30pm, trip took 6.5hrs because of traffic. I could only briefly see her and express my love.
The following 5 days were spent witnessing her decline, as she was administered morphine every hour. Hospice care, while necessary, was distressing for me, as I saw my mother, still able to hear but unable to communicate. She passed away on July 15th at 4:57 a.m.
The past two years have been exceptionally difficult. The situation began with being scammed on Discord and having my account frozen, followed by similar issues with my personal Twitter account. All my funds were gone. My lack of motivation to resolve these issues reflects my overall state of distress. I just didn’t care.
I have faced significant losses: Pop, Mom, my Career, and my own sense of well-being. My children & Wife have been the primary reasons I have persevered. I regret not being more communicative during this period and appreciate the understanding and support I have received from those who reached out.
I am beginning to recover and recently turned on my PC for the first time in over a year. Thank you to those who have been supportive and reached out during this challenging time.
I hope to be more active soon. Trying to get my life/house in order at this time.
