11/22/2025
i don’t miss him
i don’t miss the lies
the inadequacies
the feeling lost
worthless
not enough
barely enough
not quite what he wanted
correction —what he might have wanted physically
though everything he needed
the awkwardness
the tension
the trying to fix me
the proving i did love him
the proving i’d go to hell and back just to try and rescue him
and i did
the proving i would die for him
did i miss proving that
that i’d die for him
i don’t miss the not knowing what i missed
what could i have done better
or not done
maybe that was leaving sooner
maybe leaving sooner was it
or maybe having never come out to meet him
that had to be it
cause i miss him
i don’t miss him
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