09/14/2020
I have done everything they ask and tried to get done what they need and I am exhausted and at a loss of what I'm supposed to do it has been eating my soul to have my family treat me the same as you treat a criminal at what point will they end up finally stopping and caring about my boy's at what point will they end up finally acting like grandparents let alone parents cuz the way it feels and looks is they never had kid's let alone grandkids the fact this isn't weighing on their souls and heart's is killing me to do whatever it takes and the right thing over and over and have my family treat me like this after they spent all that time telling me how fuct up I am and how I'm not good enough to be a mom just to have them abuse me and as if that wasn't enough to be treated like s**t from the state of Arizona it's soul killing and heart wrenching the people who I am supposed to be able to turn to when life gets hard turn their backs on me and not just me but my kid's, who've been innocent in all of this to have to expect to see them treated like human beings and watch them get treated like they are lower than dirt and when I try to stand up for them to get told that I am in the wrong for doing so I just don't understand and everytime I am making progress to have them get in my way and talk down to me and as if it wasn't enough to have them go to the extent of lying and trying to get me arrested and they want me to just except it and give my rights up and I won't and I won't which has not say well with them I've never been innocent but I'm not that evil to deserve the treatment that they have deemed I'm so deserving of
