12/26/2023
As the last few minutes of Christmas ticked away, pulling away from my grandma’s house after dropping her off, after a great holiday at my mom and step dad’s place, with my niece and nephew and sister who I haven’t gotten to see nearly enough of since I moved to Grand Rapids (really all of my family), I started to get emotional. Not that I haven’t been this whole weekend in general, being able to be apart of my family again, especially with my aging grandma, but I really started to feel how different I am these days. How much more positive I am, and how much better I handle situations within myself, and project that into the world. And I really just have to say, that I’m so fu***ng glad that I fought to get here, exactly where I am in this moment.
There will always be ups and downs in life. Good and bad. Uplifting and heartbreaking. But I realize now that, it gets better BECAUSE you get better. (My mind’s been a big cliche all weekend I fear. 😂) And you can only get to this moment in life where you feel free and present, if you stick out those difficult moments. There have been many times in my life where I have felt certain that I wouldn’t get to where I am today, not only emotionally and spiritually, but also physically. But I’m glad I found a way to persevere and keep fighting, through the support of all my loved ones through the years, with the belief that maybe someday I’d figure it out. And no, omg no lol, do I have it all figured out by any means, but I’ve realized that you have to take life as it comes, and also strive to be the best you that you can be in the moment.
My Christmas wish is that we not only show each other a little more love in our every day lives, but also ourselves. If you ever need someone, please don’t be afraid to reach out to someone for help, because you never know where life can lead you unless you’re here to find it. 💙