10/18/2024
This morning I woke up to a hot cup of coffee , a hug from my hubby and a 25 year sobriety chip !!
Who knew ….. I guess God Did
Oct 18, 1999. I had a new desire to get sober and ask for help . I went to a AA meeting at noon down the street from where I lived in Temecula CA. I was so nervous to go in I had my friend Amanda come with me . I was very hung over and covered with bruises. Feeling complete incomprehensible
Demoralization , I made a Decision to stop drinking .
Who knew …. I guess God did
I have been sober now longer then the time I spent drinking . It’s kind of weird to think of it that way but it’s true . Self sufficiency and self will run riot was ruining and my life and I had no more answers on how to handle life on life terms . Being a alcoholic is not about blame or shame . I’m not good or bad. I have been forgiven . I can let go of regret and walk hand in hand with others like me on this road to recovery .I am not alone and I’m not so different as I sometimes still think I am. I have Learned that communication is more then just talking, it’s listening too . And listening is more then just hearing . Hearing to understand and Honestly speaking from the heart to connect with others is what communication is for me today .
Who knew…. I guess God did
I have an amazing life today . Being sober and having a strong community around me of sober people helped me raise 2 very successful kids . Who now are raising their own successful families . I have been married to a man who loves me and has always wanted me to happy for 30 years . I have the ability to create through music and be apart of a purpose larger then myself . I am dealing with the heartache of a aging mom and the passing of my father , all sober !! We have moved , traveled , loss money made money , we have had amazing highs and difficult lows. I have tried and failed and I have Been rocketed to the 4th dimension, sometimes in the same day. Ha Ha , but I didn’t drink no matter what .
Who knew ….. God did
So today. 25 years without a drink now what . What’s the next adventure ? Who will I meet along the path ? Who will still be walking next to me ? I have an amazing family , I have friends, mentors, and unshakeable faith .
As long as I don’t drink today I have hope . They said Don't leave before the miracle And miracles happen everyday !! Today I am a miracle!! Thank you ALL for my life, my relationship with Jesus and for all the many many many blessings I have today !!! I have so much to be grateful for!!!
Who knew ….. I guess God Did
