03/04/2026
*Have You Ever Wanted to Disappear?*
Have you ever wanted to just disappear?
To run far away and feel no fear,
Hide from the weight of responsibility,
Lay down the burden the world gives to me?
It truly is an uphill climb both ways,
I try so hard, just barely get by most days.
As soon as I reach the top of the hill,
The ground gives out — I’m falling still.
I sit and question, what’s the point of life?
Why does it feel like endless strife?
I wish I didn’t have kids that needed me —
Because I’d already be gone, finally free.
Free from the ache, the constant pain,
Free from the loss, the pouring rain.
But I do have kids — sweet souls who need me,
Eyes that look up and still believe me.
And I fear what would happen if I wasn’t there
To guide them through a world unfair.
Yet sometimes I fear I can’t survive
This heavy world and still stay alive.
But for now I rise, though I feel undone,
Because I’m their mother — I’m the one.
So I’ll keep fighting, though I bleed,
Because my daughters are the reason I breathe.
