07/10/2022
At some point in my life, I feel like I'm losing all my will to live. I feel like it's easier to give up than to continue fighting for an endless battle. Sometimes I'm tired of lying to myself that everything will be okay— that I'll be happy again and I'm going to heal from all the heartaches that I've been bearing. There are times where I feel like I'm losing hope in everything and I am just moving with the flow of life. I could no longer find any motivation to survive a day, I just live my life as if I have no other choice but to wake-up and get up in bed.
Behind every smile that I show to everyone, there is a dead soul inside me. Most days, I feel like I'm drowning in sadness. I don't know what to do, I don't know how to tell anyone that I am not okay all along. I'm tired of being resilient. I'm tired of acting so strong. For the first time after how many years of being brave, I want to admit that I am so tired of this life and I don't wanna be sad anymore. I no longer want to feel like dying with the pain that I've been keeping inside. I'm tired, and I feel so lost at the same time.
— Shiori X
Art: Shaza Wajjokh
