That One Coffee Addict • Isieta

20/09/2022

☁︎ ☕︎ · — · 𝑂𝑢𝑡𝑐𝑎𝑠𝑡 · — · ☕︎ ☁︎

I thought that I would fit inside the circle,
But I got caught up in a hole
And got stucked in the void of darkness.

I can't can't wait to taste my own victory
But no matter how hard I try
I know deep inside that
I'll never be able to compete with her.

I got addicted playing games such as
Cut the rope but there won't be scissors to use.
Games like Fruit ninja
But it only requires fruit with red and white Juice.

I thought that I would be able to get higher
But i only dug my grave deeper than 6ft under.

☕︎ · – · 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝐶𝑜𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑒 𝐴𝑑𝑑𝑖𝑐𝑡 • 𝐼𝑠𝑖𝑒𝑡𝑎 · – · ☕︎

10/09/2022

They say September is the Sui/cide prevention month but there are no such thing as "prevention month" exist in my book. Sui/cide should be prevented and talked about not only when September comes. Same as Teachers should teach kids how to stop any suicidal acts not teach them that once a person is depressed there's nothing they could do. Parents should be comforting their children not destroying them and saying "it's for your own good". And as a fellow human we shouldn't discriminate others just for us to feel good and feel superior, instead we should help others build themselves up so we will all rise, equally, together.

Suicidal acts and self harm doesn't only occur when you're 16-18y.o. it comes in every age.

TW: SUICIDAL ACTS // SH

I, myself, tried to jump at the 3rd floor in my school building. I was at 3rd grade, 8 yrs old, and I didn't even knew what su***de, depression or any other mental illnesses are.
When I was at 5th grade, I made a small cut on my thumb accidentally and for some reason it felt good when I hurt myself. I started to make small cuts to my fingers and pretend like I hurt myself accidentally but I stopped because I know I might get addicted to it.
When I was at my 1st yr of hs, 7th grade, I kept missing the way the cuts felt but i tried to fight it off and ended up hitting myself with my hands. But those aren't the only suicidal acts or sh that I did.

Until now I'm still fighting them. Whenever I see any sharp objects i still feel the temptation of hurting myself or worse klln myself. When I'm at my lowest it feels like everything is made to kms or harm myself.

We may not be the same person but I know you're strong because you're still here, no matter what happens I know you can handle it. IF THE REASON you're still not giving up IS NOW GONE then BE THE REASON that someone WON'T GIVE UP. You can do it! I know you can and I believe in you!

NO MATTER HOW DEEP YOUR WOUNDS ARE, THEY WOULD STILL HEAL.

It shouldn't be "don't let others affect you"
It should be "DON'T DO THINGS THAT YOU WOULDN'T WISH TO BE SAID TO YOU"
"DON'T BE AN A**H0L3 AND START UNDERDTANDING THAT NOT ONLY YOU BUT OTHER PEOPLE ALSO HAVE FEELINGS"

10/09/2022

☕︎ · — · 𝙰𝚗𝚐 '𝚍𝚒 𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚊𝚜𝚊𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚊𝚠𝚒𝚗 · — · ☕︎

Mga kamay ay ibinuka,
Pinakiramdaman ang himpapawid
dito sa tuktok ng matayog na gusali.

“Isa, dalawa, tatlo”

Kasabay ng pagtapos sa bilang
ay ang paglipad ko
tulad ng isang paru-paro.

Lahat ay naghiyawan,
Ang iba'y tagapanuod lamang.
Ako'y nakangiti
Sapagkat natupad ko rin
ang aking minimithi

Ang maging malaya't makalipad.
Makita ang mundo sa hindi inaasahang tanawin.

Ngunit 'di tulad ng mga paru-paro
Ang mga pakpak ko'y 'di totoo.

☕︎ · — · 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝐶𝑜𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑒 𝐴𝑑𝑑𝑖𝑐𝑡 • 𝐼𝑠𝑖𝑒𝑡𝑎 · — · ☕︎

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09/09/2022

☁︎ ☕︎ · — · Bangungot · — · ☕︎ ☁︎

Pagmulat ng mga mata
umagos agad ang mga luha.

Ang suot kong damit
ay ang aking balat.
nang ako'y nagsalita
nakakapagtaka't wala na silang lahat.

Biglang naalala
ang bangungot kagabi.

Katawan ay nanghihina't
kontrolado ang paghinga
sapagkat, baka ako'y mahanap nila.

Maya-maya'y ako'y nasasakal
saaking kwintas

Kahit anong pagmamakaawa'y
walang nagawa.
Kahit anong sipa't hiyaw,
wala parin nakitang ilaw.

Sabi nila'y nakakagaan ito ng loob,
ngunit para saakin nasisira lamang ang aking laman loob.

Hinihiling na magising
ngunit lalo lamang lumalalim.

Wala namang ginawang mali
subalit pilit parin akong sinisisi.

☕︎ · — · 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝐶𝑜𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑒 𝐴𝑑𝑑𝑖𝑐𝑡 • 𝐼𝑠𝑖𝑒𝑡𝑎 · — ·☕︎

07/09/2022

☁︎ ☕︎· — · A story they once told me · — · ☕︎ ☁︎

They always tell me tales about a couple that were

“𝑴𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆𝒆𝒕 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆.”

And I that couple was like you and me.
But it's fine for me,
Atleast I got to know you
Those times I've spent with you were more fun
Than the times when I'm not with you.

I know that starting today
I have to spend my everyday without you.
But it's okay.
I'll be fine.
And soon,
I'll be okay
And someday, someone will me mine. And I'll be theirs
Just like the story that they once told me.

☕︎ · — · 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝐶𝑜𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑒 𝐴𝑑𝑑𝑖𝑐𝑡 • 𝐼𝑠𝑖𝑒𝑡𝑎 · — · ☕︎

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07/09/2022

☁︎☕︎ · — · Faded Tears like your Faded Feelings · — · ☕︎☁︎

Don't get me wrong...
I didn't said "I don't love you anymore"
What I said was I'm tired...

I'm tired of waiting for you...
I'm tired of trying for you
I'm tired of what you're making me do...
I'm tired but I never got tired loving you...

Don't get me wrong
I don't want to let go

Cuz I can't keep crying every night
I can't keep hoping for you to change
I can't keep on loving someone who's love already faded...

☕︎ · — · 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝐶𝑜𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑒 𝐴𝑑𝑑𝑖𝑐𝑡 • 𝐼𝑠𝑖𝑒𝑡𝑎 · — · ☕︎

06/09/2022

☁︎ ☕︎ · — · A Golden Lie · — · ☕︎ ☁︎

I never should've answered when the moon was blue,
I never should've said “ I love you ” .

I never should've told you my fears
And I never knew you'd be one of them.

I never should've asked "how've you been?"
I never should've told you my secrets.

If only I can control the time,
I'd go back and change mine.
I'll tell myself "this is just a lie"
But I've been captivated when I saw those eyes.

I didn't knew that lie
have such beautiful face,
Stunning brown eyes,
Perfectly imperfect
but can still make you feel breathless.
I didn't knew that
I could fall for someone's fakeness.
Now I'm trapped in those days
When you told me "You're the one"
When you said "I'll never go".

I never should've believed you.
I never should've let you touch my heart.
I never should've drowned in those eyes.
I never should've believed those lies.

If only I could go back in time
I'd reset mine
And I'll be careful not to fall once again for those beautiful lies of someone with golden eyes.

☕︎ · — · 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝐶𝑜𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑒 𝐴𝑑𝑑𝑖𝑐𝑡 • 𝐼𝑠𝑖𝑒𝑡𝑎 · — · ☕︎

06/09/2022

Did you ever just felt more "...Idk what to do anymore..." than before. It's like watching everything falling apart, including your life, you even ovethink your whole existence. You know you're dragging your own self back to that infinite void of darkness and you know you have to do something before it gets even more worse, yet you're just staring at your phone like:

06/09/2022

☁︎ ☕︎ · — · Bughaw · — · ☕︎ ☁︎

Blue is your favourite colour mine is purple,
But there are kinds of blue
that cannot be mixed with purple
or else...
the colour wouldn't look beautiful...

But i didn't let that stop me from loving you
Instead, it inspired me to love you more...

Although I never thought your love would be like a pale shade of blue...
I thought it was beautiful
But the more I stare at it
The more I understood that it's fading away...

Thats why I'm wearing blue yesterday, also today.. maybe everyday
Hoping my feelings for you would also fade away...

☕︎ · — · 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝐶𝑜𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑒 𝐴𝑑𝑑𝑖𝑐𝑡 • 𝐼𝑠𝑖𝑒𝑡𝑎 𝐿𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟 · — · ☕︎