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YOUR IMAGE AND MY RAGEWithin me resides an overpowering muscle,A force that wrestles against my enforced heart,His image...
14/05/2024

YOUR IMAGE AND MY RAGE

Within me resides an overpowering muscle,
A force that wrestles against my enforced heart,
His image flashes like bolts of lightning,
Crashing on the top my thought's hill.

I did not choose to possess this heart,
To love and be left drained and weary,
It was thrust upon me, an unwelcome burden,
Not an opportunity or a gift I deserved.

This enforced heart now stands vulnerable,
Pressuring my mind, entangled in his image,
A treacherous place to linger, lost in the shadows,
Immersed in the illusions of an elusive presence.

His gaze remains unflinching,
His lips devoid of a smile meant for me,
Yet his fingers wield a powerful spell,
Plucking consciousness from the depths of my mind.

Uncertain of how to respond,
Should I unleash violence, maintain calmness, or succumb to anger?
I yearn for empathy, for this enforced heart's desires
To reap the consequences of its deeds.

Behold,
The muscle has amassed a fortune from my torment,
Masking its intentions, avoiding guilt with deceptive guise,
Unaware of the shadow it casts,
Unconsciously draining the strength of my heart,
Leaving my lips bewildered, robbed of words,
Perhaps deceived by the defeat of explored emotions.

How do I convey that I have never truly experienced
The fullness of this enforced heart,
Denied even a chance, only glimpses through others,
Distorted by obstacles and uncertainties,
Haunted by the horrors of hearts bestowed upon them,
My own emptiness magnified.

I have portrayed these fears,
Unable to shield my enforced heart,
Consistently denying myself the opportunity to learn,
To repent, to avoid shattering it, despite its forced presence.

Frustration simmers towards this enforced heart,
Yet the words fail to find their expression,
Your desire to explore me is a manifestation of your privilege,
A privilege held over my coerced heart.

This enforced heart,
A shackle that drags me towards your image,
Can I ever find liberation,
Or are you content in my helplessness?

Allow me to describe the sensations of this enforced heart,
Not from your perspective,
Nor from those who begged for hearts and love.

For I have witnessed the distinction,
Between my morally pure enforced heart,
And the morally fallen begged hearts of others,
It is clear that I am led to servitude.

How can I endure such a cramped existence,
Amidst squalid conditions my enforced heart offers,
Lowered in the absence of his images,
Driven to madness in his very presence.

In the absence of his images, darkness engulfs me,
At times, fierce anger surges forth,
Yet it is often overshadowed by powerful fear,
Fear of an opportunity to give love and be left empty.

These frightful conditions teach patience,
To be shattered in silence,
To accept a silent demise or a raging outcry,
Must this be the attitude embedded within my being,
I refuse to accommodate this heart any longer,
Please, take it away.

BURDENED Amidst the burdened donkey's weary heave,And in the chambers of my restless mind,Lies the weight of an unmarked...
28/02/2024

BURDENED
Amidst the burdened donkey's weary heave,
And in the chambers of my restless mind,
Lies the weight of an unmarked odyssey,
Etched deep, unseen, a journey undefined.

This day, this night, the path remains obscure,
I long to sever ties, break free, depart,
Yet strength eludes me, weakness at the core,
No kiss of valor on this tender heart.

Forgive me, as I tread, toil, and stay aware,
Yearning to wander far from this abode,
Their haven, while I, cloaked in shame, despair,
Seek solace in a foreign land, unmoored.

BANK OF RIVEROn the river bank,I witnessed the fragrance of oilSpring from the sunrays of a majestic SunSporing strings...
17/02/2024

BANK OF RIVER
On the river bank,
I witnessed the fragrance of oil
Spring from the sunrays of a majestic Sun
Sporing strings of colours upon water

On the river bank,
I watched the glint of sun rays
Melt water into mirror
It's face became soft as willow

On the river bank,
I heard the footstep of dawn
And shadow racing away from the eyes of the earth
Even a young dew only run down under the root of grasses

On the river bank,
I witnessed the beauty of moonlight sleep upon water,
Stretching out whisper of silence to the creatures haunting in its heartland
Like a Stilled child gazed into the beauty of his mother's eyes,
The water became a mirror for the moon to look back at itself.

I HOLD NOTHING BACK.An old day came to me dressed up in an over-patched attireHe came to remind me of the daring days lo...
08/02/2024

I HOLD NOTHING BACK.

An old day came to me dressed up in an over-patched attire
He came to remind me of the daring days long buried in the sun rays that went down with the day I tried
The day I had a broken flight from the journey that would have had us split between the inability to face the long slippery chances to get tired of our wildness.

But hey, wait, old day
I know why I had my heart pumped so large to swallow every bit of your weakness, pettiness, and emptiness.
I know why I carved no cave for my words against your bare strength
I lost someone who had not heard from the depths of the root of my heart
Even though he had occupied it.

So no more,
Forgive me if I ignored your unwavering appearance.

A MNEMONIC LAUGHTERBetween the days that I couldn't sleep, my thoughts had the same form of intolerable annoyance becaus...
27/01/2024

A MNEMONIC LAUGHTER

Between the days that I couldn't sleep, my thoughts had the same form of intolerable annoyance because they came with a lot of voices that I have thrown down the running rivers the last time I visited my village. The voice of Tendo was the loudest.

We were going down to fetch water from the village river. I had my small calabash that enabled me to fetch the clean water running out from between the sand after we must have dug it out. The calabash helps me to fetch the water without collecting the smooth sandy sand.

Tendo had the two big basin we took to the river. It is a custom in my village that the younger one carries the entire basin when going down to the river to fetch some water.

We met some men stuck on the river with a big car. I had no idea what could be the model of the car, but it was flashy. They spoke on low voices, perhaps trying to figure out how to pull out the tyres of the car from between the sand.

After several failed attempts to have the car moving, a long silence stood under the feet of those who had tried to pull the tyres out.

" He is a philanthropist." Tendo said, pointing to a man in a black long Jumpa, who had stood far away from the car making calls.

" I didn't ask you about him." My response was stiff and firm.

" He's our uncle." She added. She hated the fact that I didn't allow her to finish the statement.

I stared at her for a while, then I nodded to signal that I understand.

" Do you know him?" She asked.
" Do I have to?" I replied.

"Give me the basin." I requested. The hole where the water we dug out was a sloppy one due to the smooth nature of the sand, I had to sit carefully. I began to fetch the water slowly. It was a stregic way to not destroy the water holes, so I squad on my legs— folded my legs under my thighs.

" You need to know more of your family members." Her voice was calm, it portrayed her concern towards me.
I simply nodded and continue filling the large basins.

" What is his name?" I inquired.

" He is Dr Ken." She answered without hesitation.

" Right. I have heard about him." I responded with a glimpse that indicates a wish to dismiss the topic.

" Yes, yes, yes. That he is stingy, right? Ha-ha-ha." She laughed so hard at the end. The river echoed the loud sound of her laughter not only because it was empty without too many people who usually go there to wash, bath and fetch water, but it echoed more because beyond the river was the large mountains that sorrounded the village.

The people who had successfully pulled the car out of the sinking sandy soil turned and looked at us in a way that indicates suspicion. Something I hated so much but Tendo has always being a sister who likes to draw the attention of people.

To be continued.....
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Public speaking is one thing I did not practice neither did i had anyone who helped me go through it. It took just one ...
18/11/2022

Public speaking is one thing I did not practice neither did i had anyone who helped me go through it. It took just one incident to hold me all up in the minds of my listener.

Reading is fun, but listening is fun_filled.

While reading is a connection of absence with presence, listening is the connection of presence in sensational emotions to presence in curiosity.

We read characters/alphabets written by an author we are not listening to or even seeing, yet we could connect to them, even while they are not there. We also here their voices, as well as their breathe and pauses. Infact, I feel the heat and boil in their blood. That's just with written characters.

Listening is an activtity of the ear which consist of hearing. But listening as an activity is the contact between the deep surface of the ear that resounds in the brain and the eyes.

The picture was taken yesterday, I had a presentation on EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE.

15/11/2022

I will share my thought about my everyday experience and we will feel the universality of thought.
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