26/03/2026
I tried not to remember today
told myself it was just another date,
just another sunrise that didn’t carry your name.
But my heart betrayed me
the moment the clock turned.
Because somehow,
it still knows you.
I didn’t text you.
Didn’t write your name anywhere it could be seen.
But inside me,
I whispered it
soft, trembling, like a prayer I’m not allowed to make.
Do you know what hurts the most?
It’s not that you’re gone…
it’s that I’m still here,
loving you quietly
like I was never taught how to stop.
You were never just a memory.
You were home in a world
that never really felt like mine.
And now I wander through everything
like I lost something
no one else can see.
I wonder if anyone held your hand today.
If someone looked at you
like you were the only person in the room.
I hope they did.
God, I hope they did..
because you deserve a love
that doesn’t break you the way ours did.
And still…
a selfish part of me aches—
wishing it was me.
Wishing I was the one
who got to say it out loud,
who got to make you smile today,
who got to exist in your world
without being a secret I had to bury.
So I’ll keep it here,
locked inside ribs that remember you too well
Happy birthday,
to the boy I was never allowed to keep,
to the love I was never allowed to show,
to the story that ended
but somehow…
never really left me.
And if love truly lingers
in the spaces we leave behind
then a part of me
is still beside you today,
whispering…
“I never stopped.”
Jane~