06/03/2022
Cring out loud is what I want
I have written many times..and some of those lines are dedicated to what I been through in life..some, I've fought for and learned to heal some pain along the way..but, some of those moments, that hurt way deep down..are stuck with me forever .No one understanding the why I keeped quiet,and the truth ..is cause I didn't want to hurt someone I love very much.Someone special, Someone who loved me unconditionally.Someone who seen me grew. who told me to speak out loud!! if ,this were to happen to me to say it!!! DON'T KEEP IT!!SCREAM IT!!DON'T BE AFRAID!!But, you see when this happens,.You shut down,You feel peralized from head to toe,your mind goes numb,your voice gets lots,you want to cry and all that comes in mind is why ?why!? Me!?You feel ,scared,You feel miserable, You feel dirty,you feel insane, yess...I've felt demons talking ,yes,I felt demons taking over me,but ,I stood strong .Is still hunting me,The more I try to forget and be happy, Some how the truth appears and reminds me ,and takes me to that dark spot, where I wish it never happened,This individuals took part of me,part of my heart, broke it without remorse,walk around me acting like ,a normal day,shows love towards me around others,believing no one is going to find out.Life sometimes takes a turn and the truth comes out.when, it does ..I know am going to feel free,and for that person that told me to scream it out!!Is been more than 30years and a written letter is all I've gotten so far!!Not everyone is strong enough to open up.Not everything heals,Not everything that someone warns you about it can be prevented, Not,everything that happens to you is your fault.Don't hold blame on you!!but, I still keep on repeating this last line more than 1000 times !!
Written by:🖤Blanca Garcia🖤
