17/08/2026
Found a video from last year, December, last month before I went back on support. You can see me having an episode, some will call intrusive thoughts, I call them voices.
I have a C-PTSD, and as of today I am packing 4 defined personalities as a response to high stress environments I grew up in. Without support, I internalise a lot, and under the pressure of performing, some of it slips out. Unfinished thoughts, or more like replies to the thoughts that bombarded me mid-sentence.
With support I get more control over this process, and my thoughts generally become more organised. I donāt feel like there are several conflicting people shouting at me, I feel like I have different ideas, and I have more control of what comes out, and I feel less shame for something that slips out.