20/09/2025
It's all about " HIM "
There will always be something from my side for him, but nothing from his side. I don’t know if it’s affection, attraction, admiration, or love for him. I don’t know what it is — it’s a never-ending feeling inside me. It’s ruining me from within, that’s for sure, I know.
I first saw him when I was 11, unaware of feelings and concept of like, love, or crush. I met him for the first time during Holi. Now when I recall that time, I ask myself, seriously, “How did I even like him? What did I even see in him that made me like him?” Honestly, he wasn’t that attractive to draw attention.
Years have passed, and now he looks pretty good. But even now, I wonder — why do I like him? I know my feelings are not about his looks, his kindness, or his behavior. I still don’t know the answer. I’m searching for it, and I hope one day I’ll find it — a discovery that might help me find the same connection with someone else and help me move on. It’s so hard to resist and not tell him how much I love him. It hurts like crazy every time I imagine he’s not mine. It’s not just mentally or emotionally — it hurts physically too. The thought that he may never be mine horrifies me. I don’t have enough courage to share my feelings with him…
Every time he’s near me, or when our eyes meet, my heart beats a little faster. I know he’s totally different from me and I’m probably not the one for him. But despite all odds, despite all harsh reality, I still hope — I keep hoping — that he’s mine.
It’s still you… but it can never be us…
Love you always, in "all ways".
Written by : Riddhika Das
Editted by : Shubhanki Das