Poems of my mind

31/01/2026

Waking up
I can hear the static
It's trying to tune a song
But its all going wrong
Constantly changing stations
No signal
Not connecting
It's all jumble
Everything is hectic
Then it finds a station
But the song keeps changing
Changing pace
Going fast
Then slow
It's always on the go
But in each song there is little clues
A puzzle that I cant piece
Cryptic messages
It goes loud
Then quiet
Don't know what is coming next
I am perplexed
Then a voice comes through
A message as clear as day
It's got something to say
Don't trust anybody
Abandon all hope
This world is your kalidescope
Peer through it
You will see
Everything shines brightly
Then quiet
The radio has shut off
But not for long
It plays a loud song
So loud it's deafening
I cant concentrate
Im getting irrate
Just shut up so I can sleep
All I need is a little peace
Why is that so hard
If you don't shut up
Im throwing you in the yard
The radio carries on
I scream
No peace
All hope ceased

01/09/2025

The sombre tone of war hit me
I felt their misery
I felt their anguish and their pain
I felt the bullets in the rain
Hitting me like a ton of bricks
It made me physically sick
How did they cope
I can't feel any hope
Just desperation on the battle field
No one had a shield
To protect them
Gas grenades would hit
Sharpnel pierce skin bit by bit
I want the war to end
They are only enemies noone to befriend
I wish it was pretend
Then it finished
Blackness took over
I felt peace
The fighting had ceased

01/09/2025

I dont know who's reading this poem but here I go
To those who have suffered mental health issues I understand
Whether it's from genetics or trauma or other factors
YOU CAN FIGHT THIS
Whether the pain takes you away from mental pain
DON'T GIVE UP
Trust me I've tried on numerous occasions and I'm supposed to think that there is someone up there looking out for me
There is someone up there looking out for us
Those who have tried and those who want to try
IT'S NOT YOUR TIME
Someone does love you
Whether down here or up there
There is someone guiding you along the path

07/03/2025

A dark cold September
Rain falls
A man calls
But no one can hear
No one is near
As he lays in the rain
He thinks of his last refrain
A thought comes to his brain
He will never see his family or friends again
He takes his last breath
And closes his eyes
No one hears his last goodbyes

02/03/2025

The war inside my head
Tells me I'm better off dead
I am not worthy
I am not enough
Frankly I don't give a stuff
I will keep fighting the war inside my head
And I won't end up dead
Cos I have a life worth living
A story worth telling
I am gonna keep yelling
At the top of my lungs
Cos my song is not yet sung
And I am gonna ignore the war inside my head
Enough said

18/01/2025

24/12/2024

It's Christmas eve
All the elves are busy
Santa is getting his sleigh
Last day of an advent calender
News year's is on its way
Cuddling round the fire
Drinking hot chocolate and having a yule log cake
Can't wait to open presents see if our reactions are real or fake
Oh look santa is in the sky
Be a good boy go to bed and do not cry
Get out the mulled wine
Hear the Christmas bells chime
Oh it's Christmas time

08/12/2024

There's a million and one things on my mind
I try so hard but in the end I cry
I f**k things up because my mind doesn't appreciate the good
I cry out loud and under my hood
I try my best to succeed at life
But all it does is cause me strife
Feel like a failure
Cos I know I failed ya
But I try my best to be the best
But I'm average just like the rest
So I don't know if this going to be my last
I don't regret my past
It taught me who I am
That's all that matters

09/11/2024

Tiptoeing through the dark
Trying to ignite my spark
A sigh of relief pass my lips
My mood dips
It goes up and down
Round and round
I try not to make a sound
A sound of pain
As I dance in the rain
To the beat of my own drum
My fingers strum
A guitar of emotional turmoil
I smile
And wave for a while

07/11/2024

Bit of a dark one so TW don't read if triggered but current mood at the moment

Dark thoughts whisper
Snakes hiss
Stabbed in the back though you missed
Words haunt me
I dont want to live
Feel like a burden
Can't get over every hurdle
My blood starts to curdle
Just want to be held tight
As I sleep through the night
And take my last breath
I welcome death

29/10/2024

Knocking on heavens gate
I wait
My no one answers
I go back down to earth
The pain of mind
I sigh
I was so close
But no close enough
Life is rough

29/10/2024

Another one from jocky bhoy

The eve of no return.
Not a day since goes by without a teary eye, sincerely I, will always try to get by, one guy knocked on my door without knowing the score, we walked, talked, I squalked, lost in the rapture of inside pain, looking for people to blame without explanation!
Patience wasn't a thought, but years later I still smell the fragrance of my raising, before said erasing. What I knew of you was amazing, no complaining, just devastating!!
My world was gone, I reached out to only one.
Heads spun from a life gone.

You know who you are I'm forever grateful x