Colin’s Jumps & Other Stories

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28/06/2025

GLASS OF POETRY

The treble distortion
of a candle-flame
viewed through
an empty glass.
Perceptions softened
by the contents
of the mind.
The glass distorts.
The flame changes,
illusive as it dances.
The mind sees that,
which it would normally
never perceive.
Thus, in life we see
the interpretations
that we are conditioned to accept,
missing the creative beauty
behind all that we experience,
accepting a monochrome,
one-dimensional version
of an otherwise
fantastical,
beautiful
life.
See more.
Think more.
Feel all.
Now, view your
garden of life
through a
full glass
of poetry.

©️CHSpeare

28/06/2025

CUSHIONS AND STONES

Journeys converge upon the diverse roads of life. Some lead to nowhere and others bring tensions and pain. Highways petter out into paths that become overgrown and obstructed, yet the least travelled and unpromising routes can be the most rewarding.

It is the journeyman of thoughts that brings us closer to our dreams that may never be a reality. To find out who you are requires facing tests that challenge self-belief and the meeting of our failings head on.

Many live untested in belief that they can meet any situation, yet the skills to overcome the challenge of life can only be earned by the battle of self-improvement, out there where reality is ruthless.

No guru or life coach can instil the tenacity and diversity of thought that is necessary to thrive in the modern wild habitat of human society. Respect, love and self-awareness is earned, it is never given free of suffering.

Some climb mountains to reach their souls, others volunteer to help in desperate times. The soldier conscripted to war faces untold challenges. Survival in extremes make heroes of men and brings us closer to the best that we can be.

Now, turn off that television and put down your beer. It is time to choose. Is your life a cushion or will some part of you be preserved in stone?

©️CHSpeare

28/06/2025

FRAGMENTED SHAPES

Wind-washed, soft and flowing
In the shape of everything.
Light glowing, pearl-white,
Always there, passing.
Sunlit, moon-bright
Day and night.
A basket full of dreams
Felt, yet unseen.
Spinning a thread,
Silken weave.
Thoughts free
Within the shreds
Of imagination.
Cuts in time woven
As yours and mine
Beyond the deep
Of some endless sleep
In the pattern of a heartbeat
That eludes the fragrance of love,
As your dream becomes mine.

©️CHSpeare

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Image by Aykut Aydoğdu, a Turkish digital artist and illustrator

22/06/2025

BEYOND FLESH
(Part from the forthcoming book “Jumps”)

Should that feeling, sensitive skin of our flesh be but just a flaccid sack that holds the substance of life, and the bony spherical globe that forms our skulls hold the chemistry of our minds;

in death does all disintegrate to be the dust that blows in the memories of those who are also destined to be the fine grit of reason lost.

What holds our thoughts—the very essence of who we are—not who or what we think we are? Can it be that our feeling thoughts live beyond and without the hanging frame of life?

There is no book of words that exposes the truth of our frustrating self-deceptions; only a Bible that deviates and deceives the truth to lure us into a false faith, which in itself avoids the acid bath of self-interpretation in contracting responsibility for fate to a random universe that in reality is not there.

Are you just a reaction, or could it be that there is more that defines you beyond substances material? For some of us watch the setting sun and feel the chill of a rising full moon, and catch a sensing glimpse of a ghost that slips between the reality of our spirit and soul that is the sum total of everything that we have ever been and will be.

Is it not possible that you are something other than human, having become the possession of desires that are not yours? Have you ever felt the seed of a craving for some repugnant carnal deed of pernicious nature that, once suppressed, creeps back to demand your attention? For we are of many things that make us much more than most can fathom to quantify and understand.

Those of sanity become insane and the good become evil, whilst evil can be the greater good. From within comes that, which is assumed to be without, and all that is truth may be a deception.

I know my deceptions in truth and once had the strength to challenge those demons of influence in such a way that I was torn apart into the isolated component fluids that were once the rivers of my life.

I heard myself speak and knew that it wasn’t my words that I heard, as some apparition deviated my attention into a hidden corner of character that exploded its frustrations upon the soft physical dream of who I desired to be.

I cannot say if I summonsed the devil or if that shadow so malign chose to fall into me. I can never be sure if it was the actions of those others who belittled my efforts to succeed as a good person, and the society that condemned me into the obscure nothingness of repetition and tired failure.

I am sure of one thing, that the Devil is in me; it doesn’t need breath, for it takes mine. It steals my emotions and corrupts who I want to be.

After many sleepless nights, I caught a glimpse of myself and, whilst in a state of fear, I summonsed a question that nearly killed me, but worse was still to come, for my question was to take a look deep into the mirror of the thing that is part of who I am.

I can only describe that quivering fleshless exposure of vessels and sinews without a pulse as a harrowing dark evil that I wish no man to ever confront, for I now understand the despair of truth that there can be no victory, only a fluctuating balance between absolute evil and the total innocent good that is within the will of mankind.

There will be evil for as long as there are men in a world created by a god.
A god that created man, that man may enact evil to justify god’s self-righteousness. A god who is both satanic and angelic.

©️CHSpeare


Image by Polish artist Tomasz Alen Kopera

22/06/2025

HARBOUR
(Part of the forthcoming book “Jumps”)

What if we are all vessels upon an ocean of time, washed through the cross tides and wrecking storms that lead us into the floating, drifting place at the journey’s end under an eternal sun that will bake our crumbling bones to the dust of our thoughts for the nibbling silvery fishes to eat?

Some live long and slow, others live fast to die too soon. What learning can we take beyond this stellar voyage earthbound, thought-free in liberations of realisations that so few achieve?

Do we die to settle benthonic to some deep trench into the Nevertime as if there was no time before and after the rotting?

Are you simply the combustion of air, water and carbon that plants generate and rivers flow under the blowing winds that drive our sail of ignorance into that inevitable riot of living space?

What colour is that sheet upon the jib that catches the windy light of your dreams to drive time’s inevitable flow that passes you even when you are anchored static in slumbering sleep?

The wind of emotions whips up the waves that brake in mares of braying pain within the ear of your soul and drowning subsumes the lost love of life that you can watch as it sinks before your very eyes under the dark sky of what others impose upon the deck of endeavour’s voyage.

Beyond all is the harbour of love that shelters your heart from the rage and torment that afflicts a sailing, thinking mind.

Could it be that this cove of peace is the enemy of time’s attrition that can liberate the essence of what we share beyond any storm?

Love is the light warmth that radiates gentle winds to rest us for all time.

©️CHSpeare

22/06/2025

SLICES OF LIFE

A portion of time
And a slice of space,
Boots on my feet
And a smile on my face
In a place between
Tomorrow and yesterday,
Forever running
From night into day,
As each slips away.
Always the same —
Warm sun or cold rain,
A stave in my hand
And a sack upon my back,
Air in my lungs
And light in my eyes
As blue as a clear sky.
Walking city wide
In a single stride
Into wild wilderness,
Both yours and mine.
For the words in my mind
Sing a song lifetime long.
An orchestra in my head,
The notes of an age,
For I write so much
That never lands upon a page,
Yet you, my dear reader,
Know what I should say.
Your smiles are this beggar’s wage.
Unwritten is the love of life
That we both share.
There is a single reason.
It is that we care.

©️CHSpeare

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Image: “Old Tramp”, oil painting by British painter Isabel Codrington (1874–1943)

22/06/2025

CRADLED

Sweep my heart up in your mind.
Let me be your dancing time.
Draw me in with you resting gaze.
Show me our sleeping hallowed grave.
Rest my head as I rest yours,
Cradled in a heavenly state.
Send my soul to a cloud of dreams
To meet yours where life’s lantern glows.
Let us float where lovers’ tears flow,
A place where feelings grow.
It is the sound of your smile
That heals my internal state.
Feel the flight of our time in fears,
For my love is your desire.
Yet unseen together
We are a river of passion’s need.
Your words heal love’s hurting pain.
Let us love again and agin.
The beauty of this shimmering game
Lets us live as none can see,
For together in love we are insane.

©️CHSpeare

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Image: painting by Sergey Galanter

22/06/2025

CROSS

Intimidation brings its fear.
Steel helmets gathering near.
Rutted fields and fallen homes.
Concrete that covers
Our children’s bones.
A river of blood,
The crossroad.
Dnipro Styx.
Hell flying in a shell.
The silence of slaughter.
A special operation where
Russian citizens look away.
Until the devil makes them pay,
For at the cross none can get away.
He laughs, for he does god’s work,
Exposing the evil in man.
The beast blew the dam.
It’s a Russian Orthodox plan.

©️CHSpeare

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Image: acrylic painting by Ukrainian artist Valera Gorobets

22/06/2025

FIVE WORDS

What was that?
She moves away,
Wants to play.
What did I do?
I don’t know.
Talk to myself. Why?
I guess I answer myself, too.
But answers?
Yeah, answers!
They’re like bullets,
So fu***ng fast
You miss them in the mess.
Mess, what a mess!
I’ve travelled, that is
Amongst the deadmen.
I saw them outside
And beyond my dreams.
God, they told me so much
With their silent, cold, staring eyes.
Dreams like conversations.
Conversations like dreams.
It’s bloody mad, but there it is.
Me talking to Me
Like my brain’s split into two of us.
I didn’t want to meet Me.
He isn’t good for me,
But truth is truth.
Another drink please.
Pour it slowly because I like
The sound of whisky over ice.
It eases my nerves
When I have to talk to you.
It eases our mind —
The distillation of words
Into a spirit from a spirit.
The evaporation of time.
As for her, she is many
And they’re all the bleeding same.
I like one, and you hate her.
Well, that’s the difference
Between us.
I guess it’s down to taste
If, of course, we are the same,
Each — one another,
The same but different.
It’s only a conversation, isn’t it?
No! Put the gun down!
Let’s have a smoke
And let the drink get
From my belly into my brain.
We can sort this out between us,
Maybe? Okay.
One of us has to leave,
But a shot ain’t gonna split it.
That’s a gun and a glass.
I can live with myself when I’m busy,
But when the noise stops,
Out you come. Or is it me?
Wanting two different things
And no room for compromise.
It’s the tiredness
That brings the devil out.
You can’t work on when you’re tired.
We have to stop for rest,
And it’s then that the thinking starts.
I say thinking, but it’s shouting.
Bloody shouting — you at me.
Okay, okay, keep your voice down.
After all, it’s only us.
Don’t want to upset
The furniture in our head.
We know each other.
Jump! Should I jump?
You stay here, and I’ll jump.
I don’t care anymore.
One draught on a cigarette.
Love the way the to***co
Is so neatly wrapped
In pure white paper
And the gentle brown of a filter,
So deliciously delicate.
Such a pure thing
Like a life burning to fall as ash.
The ash of a purified soul.
I’ve been burning for years now.
Almost burnt out.
Incineration.
Isn’t that the way we go?
Ah, that’s good!
I can feel the smoke
Filling my lungs, purging the air.
The pleasure of asphyxiation by ni****ne.
That iron rail is cold,
The barrier of life that separates us
Both, divided into one.
Raindrops upon the steel,
They fell from somewhere above.
But we all fall down.
It’s black like this late night,
Our last one. Don’t remember?
Do you see the sky?
Yes, we share the same eyes,
But see different things.
Only one of us has to go.
It’s goodbye then?
I guess so.
Best of luck out there.
S**t, you jumped.
I’m gonna miss you, Me.
Even in death we are not alone.
Didn’t realise that if one of us jumps,
We both fall to the ground.
Five words, that’s all.
So few, yet so many.
Letters written of a thought,
A meaning sent.
Five words, syllables of intent
In combination representing sound.
Can you hear me from out here?
Five words written, never heard.
Oh, I never told you.
I forgot you.
Five.

©️CHSpeare

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Image author unknown

21/06/2025

THE MARCH OF SILENCE

Trumpeting and stamping,
Yet in silence they came.
The weak and the willing
Shook off their shame.
They flowed from the sewers
To put on grey uniforms.
Money came to their cause
From the few of self-interest.

The rest is the story of our fall.
It started in the city —
Young men who had nothing,
Those who were kidded
That they could be something.
Then came the curtain twitchers
Who took money to inform.
From the nasty a single party was formed.

They marched through our streets.
The good people hid inside.
Any who resisted
Were taken for a last ride.
The rich grew richer,
The poor left to eat bread.
The army expanded.
Then war claimed millions of dead.

We fought like tigers
And thought that we won the war,
But not many years later
It’s all as before.
The liars and deceivers
Shout from a politician’s pulpit
Whilst those who would have been jailed before
Hold all of the top jobs.

In a country owned by criminals
And the insane,
Whilst all of the good people
Hide in silence,
It’s time for war
Once again.

©️CHSpeare

21/06/2025

HARVEST

Labour strong —
Farmers who feed the world.
Sun, soil and rain.
Working energy and human pain.
The risk and the storms,
The wind of first breath
Up for the dawn.
Livestock loved,
Each that is born.
Creative is the farmers’ craft
While others sleep, drink and laugh.
Long, lonely hours
Out in the field,
Late home after dark.
The company of a dog
Who knows when to bark.
Farming is a life,
Never a lark.

©️CHSpeare

21/06/2025

THE SHOP OF DREAMS

Along a back street, behind the market square, pigeons roost high in the greenery of the plane trees that cast a dappled shade upon the traders and shoppers who never notice them for their earnest bartering. They plummet and swoop amongst the gathered people for crumbs and seeds that fall to the dusty ground.

Most never see the alleyway, through which you have to duck under the ancient pink granite entrance arch before scaring Jacobin, the black cat, who guards the alleys entrance.

Ferns grow to droop lazily upon the side garden walls and tumbledown house fronts. In places, you have to duck under the eves that extend over the gravel path.

You can never approach unannounced, for Jacobin meows a welcome and the yellow gravel crunches deep into itself underfoot. Halfway along the alley is a small stream that trickles over emerald, velvety, moss-covered, time-rounded stones.

The moss gives its name to this enchanted place because it is as soft as the downy velvet that covers a yearling deers antlers. A slight diffusing mist rises in the warm air, sheltered between the walled banks of Antler Alley.

Not many venture further along, as there are no shops to entice speculation and investigation. Some see something beyond the mist or follow Jacobin’s meows and for them they approach the alley that has mysteriously become a busy street of some three hundred years earlier. At its end is a hand-carved oak sign that reads, “The Shop of Dreams”.

Most who enter the heavy wooden door that is glazed with thick green speckled glass that obscures a view in from outside, never leave as they entered.

Should you be lucky enough to enter, your mouth will drop in pleasant surprise, then quickly rise in its longest smile, as a purple parrot welcomes you with a nursery rhyme, and elves take your coat and gloves past snails who smooth the sawdust upon wooden floorboards, as single notes rise through the joints with each step that you take.

Tomato plants grow in pots, basking in the light of glow worms that charge their batteries upon honey delivered by a platoon of bees who work with military precision, whilst humming tunes of flight.

Upon the ceiling that is not there, stars glint, supported on the wings of skylarks who hover between moonbeams that spotlight jam jars full of daisies upon the counter shelves. These are kept plucked and perky by ladybirds, all named Ethel, who drink drips of pink gin left in saucers by the shopkeeper who nobody knows.

There are boxes full of toys that cherubs come to play with, and toys for children appear as each child enters the shop door to keep them happy, whilst parents marvel at the array of goods, of which not one is for sale. This is a shop that trades in the currency of fun where the only money is eaten because it is chocolate.

Watched by a family of hedgehogs seated upon mushrooms, pixies play fight upon hobbyhorses, jousting with barley sugar-spikes. Bats fly between the stars, weaving silk from spiders’ webs to make white clouds that store water for quenching the plants.

At the rear of the store, just before the garden door, sits an old fluffy bear with a wooden pipe full of smoking lavender seed and h**p. His glasses are round and perched upon his very long nose that twitches at a passing bee. He has no job except to occasionally ask a shopper to scratch behind his ears.

Upon the floor is a pond full of fairy tears where baby dragons wash their flames so that they can read their schoolbooks without burning the words. How else can a dragon learn to be nice? Their teacher is a dragonfly so buzzing and pretty she cannot sit still, fuelled upon Coca Cola, served in a brewer’s still.

Squirrels scamper their bushy tails, dusting and brushing magic dust, produced by the pollen of a magicians tree. Occasionally, some escapes into the nostrils of a baby child who then floats up with a great big sneeze to be rescued by nurse swallows who fly upon the sneezed breeze.

Passing through in tunnelling boots, dragging picks and shovels, a troop of moles wear helmets and lamps on their way to the garden to harvest potatoes for the late night soup that all shall drink through dancing straws before the shop opens, having never been closed.

Wiggling and waggling, a piglet looks for his toes, having forgotten to put on his clothes. Mother pig explains that he has hooves, but he still wants his toes, so an owl ties five porky sausages with a ribboned bow and, with some magic, makes them into small fat toes. Squealing with delight, he pulls on his pants and runs out of sight.

Snoring can be heard from under the shop counter where old man badger was checking his sleep. He groaned, “Is it nighttime yet, for it is my job to sweep the floors?” He looks at his pocket watch, twitching his nose only to fall back to sleep and dream of earthy holes.

Bottles of cordial made for fun and packets of sweets for red-cheeked boys, lollipops for girls with dolls and a trolley ride ready for everyone.

This is the shop of dreams and, should you want to buy, it will not let you come. So, next time you sleep, ask the fairy at the gate to your dreams for directions to Antler Alley
where there is a shop that I have known because I first came here as a child three hundred years ago.
See you soon.

©️CHSpeare

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