06/07/2026
trigger warning - pregnancy loss, miscarriage
back online after a couple of weeks of pure sadness really.
i don’t always share everything on here because i like to keep some things private, & never know what you guys want to know and what i feel comfortable sharing blah blah blah but i felt the urge & need to share this.
in may liam and i got pregnant, which was so, so exciting. we went for an early private scan (at a place i would never ever go back to. if anyone wants advice on where not to go, PLEASE reach out) they couldn’t see anything and, long story short, the little bean had stopped growing
we were told i’d likely miscarry, so we had to go home and essentially wait for my body to do its thing, which was savage & v long, mentally and physically, especially as i was given a tiny bit of hope that things may work out…
anyway 3 days later the inevitable happened & the pain... jesus fu***ng christ,THE PAIN..having to go through that emotional loss & then deal with the physical pain on top of it was actually horrendous. i couldn’t keep food down, i couldn’t get off the sofa, i genuinely thought i was going to pass out through the pain, it’s something that’s massively played down… a miscarriage is NOT just like a heavy period, i think ill loose my MIND if someone says its just like a heavy period again😂 jEsUs
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i’m lucky, and sadly, i have a lot of friends who have been through similar. if i didn’t have them, i honestly think i would have been in a much worse place. maybe that’s why i felt i needed to share this… support from friends/loved ones/anyone - THE best.
we are also lucky we are surrounded by friends and family who haven’t experienced this themselves, but were so so amazing too,the constant check-ins, food deliveries, flowers, drop ins to the house, voice notes & just endless love and support.
i feel very lucky.
i naturally have spiralled a lot worrying about the future, & can’t stop thinking about how my body failed me or at least how it feels like it failed me by not doing what it was “supposed” to do….i’m so livid really as i felt SO sh*t,tired & bloated when i was pregnant and now i feel just sh*t,tired still bl