18/12/2025
Two months ago in Berlin, I portaled into another dimension.
It’s just past midnight, and I’m sitting at my desk at home, lamps dimmed.
I press play on a recorded meditation that I’d tried for the first time a few days before. A voice guides me through ten minutes of breath-holds coordinated with squeezing the body’s lower muscle groups, with the intention of accelerating the spinal fluid’s natural upward flow — into the brain.
5 or 10 minutes after doing the breathing exercises, I feel a sunburst of energy lighting up my mind. The voice has moved on to other ideas, but I am now traveling at high speed through a tunnel of blues and purples. It is visual and visceral and I am shocked.
Instinct tells me to stay on top of the wave, for it to continue.
Over the next — what feels like two hours, but is only thirty minutes — I surf a boundary space, between deep emotions of universal love and the obstacles that block me from its immensity . . . versus a background awareness of sitting by myself somewhere in the physical world. I’m laughing, crying from joy and sadness alternating or combined, tears streaming out from closed eyes.
I let motor functions slacken, so I’m freely drooling too — just making a righteous mess — but the intensity of the emotional roller-coaster pulls me fully through. I awaken to my love for family and friends and even random acquaintances around me, and for myself, the last of which hits me like a bomb.
At one point a glow of light suffuses my field of vision, then brightly envelopes the whole thing, which I can’t explain because it’s the middle of the night and I’m alone.
Afterwards . . .
// this story continues on side B of campfire sparks issue 32
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