16/01/2026
A Poem To The Fig-Wood Ghost
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I see now where the road intends to go,
A grey line bending through the silent fig,
To put a settled distance in our sky,
To take from you what never was yet mine.
Carries off the luster of our laughter,
The salted taste of all the gathered tears,
And every borrowed hour that followed after,
A harvest of the unripe, fruitless years.
The pain I should have carried, stone by stone,
I left to cool within another’s hand
A ghost of obligation, not my own,
To haunt a stranger in a stranger’s land.
I am tired of your visitations in my sleep,
That fig-wood chair where you used to sit,
The conversations that the dawn would keep,
Fragments of a dream that never fit.
I am done with what the twilight once called right,
The compass broken in the dawn bloom
knowing you was a long and starless night,
A locked and unused room.
But now, the morning light is much more bright.
The sunlight holds me with its ancient weight,
A warmth that does not question or forget,
And finds me patient in front of your gate.
I do miss you when the copper sun descends,
A slow submerging in the distant bay,
And the ordinary daylight ends,
Every day.
Yet tell me, how many stars have failed to climb
And pierce their watch above the apple tree?
How many shooting stars lost their time,
Uncounted because you didn't watch with me?
This is the way the heart becomes a shore
I miss you, and I don't miss you
I love you, and I don't love you
You are a wave of what I must refuse,
A tide of old sorrow, blue and deep,
That rises only where I choose to lose
The joy I labor long and quiet to keep.
I'll keep a space behind this stone wall,
A plot of shadow where the earth is turned,
To let a different kind of weeping fall
Where what is bitterly remembered, burned,
May become a seed the frost will hold.
And from this hidden ground, this silent, slow,
I'll make another song for you, but cold,
To let this pain go.
Ahmed Abbas Al-Tonsi