27/04/2026
I want to be a better version of me.
I am not entirely sure I’m being my true authentic self and I have decided to embark on a journey of self discovery.
I will start by setting an alarm tonight as I never do that, and that way I will hopefully start a new routine of actually being present in the morning.
I will challenge myself to grab a glass of water and try a mindful activity before anything else. My normal at the moment is to scroll my phone - mining for dopamine… then do a long overdue p*e before heading for the kettle to make coffee. Knowing I’ve woken late and have 30 minutes to have the kids ready for school and out the door.
It’s like I’ve never been able to be a functioning adult really.
How have I managed to get this far?
taking a photo of me/selfie is always a tricky thing. I know people say I’m beautiful but my photos are silly… somehow I always pull some kind of strange face and my family gives me crap so I will attempt to teach myself to take a decent selfie. Weird goal but hey it’s my journey and loving who I am is part of it and maybe my pics will have my face getting smile lines down the track.
Speaking of smiling I don’t really do much of that so finding reasons to smile is a must!!
I haven’t read a book from cover to cover in 11 years… a traumatic event happened to me and my family, I think that reading was something that stopped at that time. A symptom of PTSD for me. I would like to rediscover reading and get lost in books again. Give myself permission to rest and relax and just read a book.
A walk around a block, find a nice area to walk. Fresh air, trees, birds. slow down and allow myself a time out for walking for no reason.
TBC